Василий Ласовский
The Last Da Vinci

Preface to the English edition

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First printing edition 2022 (in Russian) and 2024 (in English).

This is the English translation of my second book, it was prepared in the fall of 2024.

Published in electronic form on the Litres digital platform and in paper by Ridero in December 2024.

The translation done by myself, because I know English and French to some extent, I studied them at school and institute.

Initially, a machine translation source from Google was used, which was read twice and all found errors were corrected.

Also all typos found during the period 2022–2024 were corrected, all links were checked.

The original book was published in Russian on September 1, 2022 in electronic form on Litres platform; in paper in December 2022 by Ridero, ISBN 978-5-0059-4020-9.

Link to the Russian edition of the book in electronic form:

https://www.litres.ru/book/vasiliy-lasovskiy/posledniy-da-vinchi-68001386/

The translation into English of my first book 19+ is expected in spring 2025, it was published in Russian on Litres platform on October 15, 2018; in paper in October 2018 by Ridero, ISBN 978-5-4493-5682-6, and here is its page in electronic form:

https://www.litres.ru/book/vasiliy-lasovskiy/19-38626360/

Link to the author's page, where you can download the Russian originals of my books and their translations into other languages:

https://vasilylasovsky.livejournal.com

Author's email:

vasilylasovsky@yandex.ru

91tenet19@gmail.com

Best wishes to my occasional rare readers ;-),

Vasily Lasovsky.

“Listen, Anne, I fell in love…”

“Is that so?”

“For the first time in my life and for the rest of my life. I've never been so happy. But… there is one obstacle between us—you see, she is from Perador.”

“Perador? From the province, perhaps?”

“Somewhat. Historical province. In short, I’m ready to fight the Dragon, stomp across the Star Bridge, which is colloquially called the Milky Way…”

from the film “31 June”, 1978, episode 2, time 0:19:00.

Preface

“I came here from afar. Possibly from Zanzibar.”

“There is no sea there.”

“Oh, then that means from Genoa.”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:42:00.

This book has very little to do with the work of the great Renaissance artist Leonardo Da Vinci; the title was chosen solely as an allegory, and to some extent to create a psychological motivation for self-development.

The basis of the book is the facts of my biography. Its limits the period of 5 years from the beginning of 2018, when my first book 19+ ends, and until the publication date of this book, the end of summer 2022.

A significant difference in my life path is the extreme degree of non-manifestation of my personality in my contemporary everyday world, which is compensated, I hope, by its work on other planes.

On a daily basis, I rather deal with the systematization of thoughts and sensory experiences of the everyday reality that opens up to me, and to a minimal extent for changing it under my own influence.

The book should be considered with skepticism, as a work of fiction filled with fantasy and illusions.

The main tool for analyzing my biography at the moment is to take the temporary center at September 10, 2017 and the divergence of the influence of events from this moment into the past and future. Naturally, this analysis is fantasy, fictitious, creative.

It is also important that some events turned out to be extended in their manifestation over years or even decades, and in order to understand them we have to return to some events in the past, which requires very specific comprehensive thinking.

The foundation for the book and my current worldview is the mystical idea of fantasy Attributes, i.e. about the creative manifestations of certain personality traits of a particular person, which are presumably given to him from birth or from conceiving, but which are revealed at the right moment of his maturation and only under certain catalyzing external circumstances. The presence of external circumstances is a key factor. The attributes are interesting because they lead me to my supposed “legacy”, which is extremely intriguing.

The main theme of my thoughts in this book is the problem of subjective perception of the passing of time.

Restrictions. The book is NOT intended for reading by believers, because it can cause them mental wounds and suffering. All my rare thoughts on the topic of any religion are only a fantasy of my imagination and, according to my subjective perception, have little relation to reality. But in any case, I apologize if I hurt anyone's religious feelings, this was in no means my intention.

The book is neither a mystical work nor a conspiracy theory, and it will disappoint fans of these genres. This is still a “biography with elements of fiction”, just like my first book. And if you haven’t read my first book, then think about whether you need to read this one? I believe it is much less interesting than the first part of my lifestory events.

Regarding the fictional nature of my personal experiences. Of course, and undoubtedly, they are all fictitious, but I do not write about this obvious fact on every page. Thus, the text consists of specific facts of my life and assumptions based on them. I do not at all assert the likelihood of the existence of these fantasies and assumptions, with a high degree of probability – they are just my conjectures that connect real events and allow me to decorate the narrative.

Who is this book for? After writing the previous part of my autobiography 19+, I suddenly realized that I like to go back and re-read my own book. It’s funny, but I’m writing this work exclusively for myself.

I completely lack the motivation to somehow manifest myself in the world and, accordingly, gain some kind of “popularity”.

My first book 19+ was read by about 150 people. On one of the two sites where it was published at the end of 2018, in the first year there were 40 ratings (average rating 4.0 out of a maximum of 5.0), on the second site there were only 5 ratings. The number of ratings has not increased in subsequent years (2020–2022), so I assume it was read only in 2019.

I hope a lot, that fewer people read this book. Less is better. Of course, you will think that I write this way so that, on the contrary, more people will read it. But no, I really don't want anyone to read it. I believe that every person has enough random garbage in his head and there is no need to add more.

This is my personal diary, and I make notes in it for myself so as not to forget something important. Publication will naturally limit the possibility of editing, and of course, publishing a book ends the process of endless additions, which is also very pleasant.

Accordingly, I am not going to advertise or promote it in any way and I ask casual readers of this work (and the previous book 19+) to try NOT to tell other people about this work! Let it be my little secret.

I believe that books of this kind should not be published. But in the age of overflowing with easily accessible information, I expect this book to be successfully lost among millions of others.

Instead of this book, read a wonderful science fiction novel on the problems of time – Isaac Asimov's The End of Eternity, 1955.

Introduction

“Probably it’s all about retro.”

“Oh my God, Anne! What are you wearing?”

“I’m explaining to you – retro is in fashion now: they wear what did they wear in the 70s of the 20th century, and Sam, apparently based on this…”

“What did they wear in the 70s of the 20th century?”

“Well, what they wore in the 30s of the 20th century. In general, retro is a search for a fair lady, a return to respectable relationships… and sublime love.”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:23:15.

I started writing this book on April 7, 2021 at 6:04 pm, and that’s when I came up with the title. The time in the book is Moscow time (UTC+3, MSK Time Zone).

1) stage April 7, 2021 – May 15, 2021, total 49 pages, 116.611 characters, at the first stage the book included diary entries for 2019–2021, with minimal modification;

2) stage September 30, 2021 – January 30, 2022, total 87 pages, 225.821 characters, this stage began when I learned about the last biographical event described in the book, then there was a long work to give the composition a complete view;

3) final stage May 24, 2022 at 4:34 pm – August 30, 2022 at 2:30 pm, total 130 pages, 345.309 characters.

The publication date of the book is August 31, 2022. It is planned to publish it in e-book format on the Litres and MyBook platforms, +19 pcs. paper copies as a keepsake.

The story that will happen…

“The story that you will now see, and which happened before my eyes… hmmm… has not happened yet… But it will happen… In the 21st century, at the very beginning, on June 31. On a Lunar day…”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:00:31.

In August 1991, while in Sochi, walking along the embankment on one of the warm sunny days, passing along the alley by the sea, I had a thought that someday in the future I would remember this moment, and I naturally remembered the sensations and the place where I had this thought. Now three decades have passed, and I sometimes remember this event.

The question arises about the primacy of experiences. What was the source of the experience? My current memories or those distant events in my memory? Where is my physical existence, my experiences, when I think now about that event? In the present or in the past?

A possible answer is the experiences at that point in spacetime will occur entirely in present time. And it will be difficult to separate old memories from current experiences, because at the moment of experience I laid down this possibility, I assumed (allowed, permited) that I would remember that moment in the future. Thus, this experience does not belong to the past, but is carried with me, being constantly in the present, while I move into the future with the natural flow of my subjective time.

How can we ensure that our current changes in reality lead to the result we need in the future? What is the extent of necessary and minimal changes?

A Quick Guide for Time Travelers

Time travel begins “here and now”, and then it is directed to some point in thought space in the past.

The past can be real or fictitious. The real past is limited to the physical life of a person, and all other time travels will be fictitious. For example, a typical fictional journey is to the History of the Middle Ages. When we read literature on that period, we unconsciously “travel” to this fictional historical period. Most likely, we have nothing to do with the real events that took place; our entire journey takes place completely virtually, in our fictional inner universe.

By making a temporary trip, a person enriches his inner world, gains interesting new knowledge and skills, and changes spiritually. The depth of immersion into a new time point for each person can be completely different, from a superficial glance to a deep immersion.

When we’ll have peception of events that happened in the distant past, we undoubtedly develop, but at the same time our impact on the real world, which is always located in front of us, “here and now”, decreases.

The simplest explanation for this creative process is the creation of a “temporary parallel universe”. For example, in your memories you moved to a point one day earlier. Unconsciously, you “create” some supposedly “parallel reality” where you are currently experiencing again all those moments of your life that you remember.

The next day, i.e. now, at the moment of its creation and in the process of your remembering – this parallel reality merges with your main time path, and you become a little stronger. Because the imprint of your personality will also merge with you, adding new experiences and new perceptions.

About Messianism

I consider messianism to be a form of mental illness, quite possibly manifested due to gross external influence, when the tension was so strong that human nature could not withstand excessive pressure and was damaged, because it was not designed to withstand this vice. However, of course, I could be wrong about this, because I am far from both religion and medicine. By my nature, I categorically distance myself from such influence on myself and do not transmit it to others. I believe that a person always has a choice and the path he chooses will likely lead to a result if followed completely.

Messiah complex (second link in Russian and not available)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Savior_complex

https://hmong.ru/wiki/Savior_complex

“The Messiah complex (Christ complex or Savior complex) is a state of mind in which a person believes that he is destined to become a savior today or in the near future. This term can also refer to a state of mind in which a person believes that he has a responsibility to save or help others. <…>

The term Messiah complex is no covered in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) because it is not a clinical term and is not a diagnosable disorder. However, the symptoms as a purported disorder are very similar to those found in people who suffer from delusions of grandeur or have a grandiose view of themselves that tends toward delusion. One report specifically defines this as a category of religious delusion that refers to strongly fixed beliefs that cause distress or disability. This is a type of religious error that is classified as grandiose, while the other two categories are persecution and belittlement. According to philosopher Antony Flew, an example of such a fallacy was the case of Paul (the Apostle), who claimed that God spoke to him, telling him that he would serve as a guide for people to change them. Kent and Flew's thesis stated that his experiences caused auditory and visual hallucinations.”

This is probably a very pleasant disease. A sort of Superiority complex

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superiority_complex

Here is an example of one of the most prominent cases (the first link in Russian):

https://aftershock.news/?q=node/1137479

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sabbatai_Zevi

https://www.jhi.pl/en/articles/the-false-messiah-who-was-sabbatai-zevi,4472

“Sabbatai Zevi was born on August 1, 1626 in Izmir. He received an excellent religious education and from the age of 16 began to lead an ascetic lifestyle and immersed himself in the study of Kabbalah. <…>

In 1648, Sabbatai declared himself the messiah among his supporters.

He began to receive mystical insights, fall into depression, or vice versa into ecstasy, and publicly violate religious prohibitions. This caused the natural anger of the rabbis of Izmir. <…>

In 1658, the Jewish preacher Abraham Yachini gave Shabbatai an ancient manuscript that he allegedly found. It contained a prophecy directly pointing to Shabbatai and declaring him the messiah. The manuscript stunned and inspired Shabbatai. Well, what he already knew was confirmed.

In 1665, Shabbatai arrived in the city of Gaza and met Nathan, a young rabbi who was then preaching in that city. Nathan believed in Shabtai's messianism and became an ideologist and preacher of Sabbateanism. One might say – an apostle. Nathan sent a message to all Jewish communities and invited them to stand under the banner of the Messiah.

On May 31, 1665, Shabbatai Zevi publicly declared himself the messiah.

Shabbatai’s ostentatious asceticism and the delight of his followers, similar to the atmosphere of a modern rock concert. Shabbatai easily distributed positions and titles in the name of the King of the Jews. He modestly signed his messages and appointments: ‘I am the Lord your God Sabbatai-Zevi’.

In September 1666, Zevi was presented to the Sultan and was asked to undergo a mortal test – shooting with arrows, to prove his divine origin. Or convert to Islam. Zevi chose the second.

And this decision of his was like an avalanche – it led the Jewish communities to great disappointment and collapse of hopes.

A small part of Shabbatai’s followers also converted to Islam and formed the Dönme community, which still exists in Turkey.

He died in 1676, at the age of 50.

The true God, according to the Sabbatians, can only be revealed through the complete destruction of religious and social structures created by the ‘false god’. And at the same time, our entire familiar world order. After all, everything that is sacred and dear to us by Sabbatian standards is harmful, it is an anchor that does not allow the “true God” to penetrate the world.”

“Sabbatai Zevi, the long-dead false messiah, once appeared to the Baal Shem and begged him to remove his sins. For it is well known that redemption is accomplished through the connection of man with man, mind with mind, soul with soul. Therefore, the Baal Shem began to connect his being with the alien's being, but he did it slowly and carefully, fearing that he might harm him. One day, when the Baal Shem was sleeping, Sabbatai Zevi appeared to him again and began to seduce him, saying that the Baal Shem needed to become what he was. Therefore, the Baal Shem kicked him out, doing it with the same determination with which he descended into the very depths of hell.

From then, when the Baal Shem spoke about Sabbatai Zevi, he always repeated: ‘The spark of God was in him, but Satan caught him in the trap of pride.’”

Martin Buber “Tales of the Hasidim”, 1997.

In my opinion, the world is now somehow collapsing too quickly, and one even involuntarily wants to “slow down” these possibly objective processes of degradation.

About numbers

“Are some numbers more meaningful than others? Of course! If ordinary people, far from science or mysticism, have their favorite and least favorite numbers, what can we say about mathematicians and physicists? Numbers are as important a component of culture as words. There is no person to whom the numbers 7, 13 or 666 do not mean anything. But there are numbers that influence our lives, even if we do not know about them.”

Timothy Hugh, Connecticut.

“If knowledge cannot be expressed numerically, then it is superficial and insufficient.”

Lord Kelvin (William Thompson), English physicist, 1824–1907.

About the signs

“By appearing openly to those who seek Him with all their heart and hiding from those who flee from Him with all their heart, God regulates human knowledge of Himself. He gives signs visible to those who seek Him and invisible to those who are indifferent to Him. He gives enough light to those who want to see, and He gives enough darkness to those who do not want to see.”

Blaise Pascal, french mathematician.

Ivanov E. M. “Ontology of the Subjective” (link in Russian)

http://filosof.historic.ru/books/item/f00/s00/z0000857/st001.shtml

“On the other hand, if consciousness is a time flow, then how is it able to realize this? How can a flow know that it is a flow? Being inside the movement, being captured by it, it is impossible to feel this movement (just as, for example, sailors on the open sea, far from the shore, do not perceive the movement of their ship). In order to perceive one’s own movement in time, it is necessary to have a ‘reference point’ that is motionless in time, i.e. have something timeless. Consequently, since consciousness is capable of perceiving itself as a time flow, it must contain something outside the flow of time, something ‘supra-temporal’. (I. Kant also drew attention to this circumstance).

If we were always only in the present, we would know only the present and would not be able to grasp the movement of our own soul in time – after all, the latter presupposes the possibility of somehow correlating events separated in time, comparing them directly with each other. In general, everything temporary is possible only against the background of the supertemporal, if only simply because any multiplicity in general (and the multiplicity of moments in time in particular) is possible only against the background of unity, which overcomes this multiplicity and allows one to correlate many things, thereby affirming the fact of its existence.

Let us also note that if we existed only in the present, it would be impossible to explain how we even have the idea of a past and a future . The past and future would be given to us only in the mode of the present, but not in the mode of the past and future. But without experience in which the past and the future were directly given to us, we could not form the idea of the past and the future. After all, it is not possible to form the idea of the past or the future, using only those elements of the inner world that belong exclusively to the present. Thus, the very possibility of conceiving the past and the future indicates the presence in our subjective sphere of a certain supertemporal entity. The role of such a supertemporal entity, against the background of which the perception of the temporal dynamics of sensory ‘states of consciousness’ is possible, is precisely what sense can claim.

From a theoretical point of view, the supertemporality of meaning follows from the integrity of the ‘semantic field’ described above, its indecomposability into separate, unrelated semantic units. Since any meaning exists only in the context of the entire holistic system of meanings, we can only talk about the current experience of meaning conditionally. In each current state of consciousness, the entire totality of individual meanings is presented in the form of a semantic ‘horizon’, a universal context of what is actually experienced, albeit in a certain ‘semantic perspective’ inherent in a particular moment in time. Meanings do not replace each other, arising and being destroyed, but only their readiness for actualization changes – in relation to the current state of subjective sensuality.

Let us note that the idea of the supertemporal nature of a certain ‘deep’ component of the human soul is widely represented in various philosophical teachings of the past. Thus, for Plotinus, the most fundamental components of the soul ‘reside in Eternity’ and are identical to the world Mind and the One. I. Kant also assumed the presence of both temporary and timeless components of mental life. Actually, according to Kant, the ‘subject’, as a “Thing-in-itself”, is located outside the world of phenomena, to which only ‘temporality’ is applicable, as an a priori form of contemplation. According to Bergson, human memory is direct access (through time) to the past , and not the preservation of traces of the past in the present. The idea of the timelessness of the ‘I’ is also widely represented in Russian philosophy of the late 19th and early 20th centuries. (L.M. Lopatin, N.O. Lossky, L.P. Karsavin, E.N. Trubetskoy, S.L. Frank, etc.). Moreover, meaning was often referred to as the non-local content of the soul in time. Here it will be enough to quote E. N. Trubetskoy, who essentially expresses the general position of the named Russian philosophers.”

How do you make a story happen?

History can happen if there is an observer “here and now”. Any fantasy fictional story needs a space where it can realize itself in the moments of its combustion, leaving a cultural mark on a person’s personality.

The larger the viewer’s space, his personal “cinema”, the more majestic the story can happen, and ideally, the story can take on the “size of infinity” if the viewer has the technical ability to perceive such a grandiose size.

The more integral the subject’s workspace is the more coherent, consistent and high quality the unfolding story will be.

I envy the reader a little (in a good way) because he is now learning this story…

Spy mania

“We lived without roads… and we will continue to live. Otherwise, as soon as we fix the road, the dragon will come…

And even worse—the inquisitors will come…”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:09:52.

In May 2019, when East and I were returning home to the Russian Federation from another country, one of the Russian frontier officer approached us at the border, asked us to go into a separate room and asked me about all my close relatives, then demanded that I give him my phone, because he “needs to check the IMEI of the phone, make sure it’s not stolen”. The cost of my tiny phone (an older model, not a smartphone) did not exceed 700 Russian rubles, or about 10 US dollars.

The next suspicious event occurred when we were a quarter of the way home from the border. When we stopped on the highway, where there was a bus stop, in order to change the driver, and East took the wheel, a passenger car stopped ten meters ahead of us, driving behind us. While we were standing at the bus stop for a couple of minutes, another car stopped a hundred meters behind us, it stood there for a few minutes, then drove around us and after 300 meters went to the right to turn. As we continued on our way, we were overtaken by a car in front of us; there was a woman driving it, who looked at me carefully.

This scene reminded me of chase sequences from spy action movies. I note that this all happened on a deserted highway.

Half an hour before this event, the idea occurred to me why the frontier officer needed my phone; I told East that IMEI is used to track the geographic movements of the phone, and, consequently, its owner.

The comic “suspicion of surveillance” arose in me due to the fact that a few months before, on October 15, 2018, I published my first book 19+ via the Internet.

In the fall of 2019, my mother traveled to another country and at the Russian border, frontier guards checked her with double attention, like no one else from their group of tourists.

Hobbies or 32 fouettés

“We would like to hit on you! It's a shame you're a ghost.”

“Who is the ghost?? Am I a ghost?!! I am an honest woman and a decent widow! Even twice a widow!! I also found a king… from the other world!”

“Am I from the other world???”

“Yes!”

“I live in this world, and you, beautiful lady, came to Perador from the other world!”

“You are from the other world! And I am from this world!!”

“And I… from what world?…”

“Don't know…”

from the film “31 June”, episode 2, time 0:41:54.

Ballet, music, mathematics, computer games

“I see the blue, distant light again,

Ballet is my Charming Prince,

He gives me a gilted shoe

And he leads me into a mysterious world.”

Song “Ballet”, singer Alla Pugacheva, 1985.

Ballet

In mid-august 2018, I was sitting on a bench outside my house, where I lived in apartment 109, wondering what I should do in my future life. On June 19, 2018, I finished the book 19+; then East and I went to the city of Rechitsa regarding the issue of a deed of gift for half of my father’s house, and for a month now I had not done anything, and was quite ready to clarify my way of communicating with reality.

I rejected all options that included direct communication with people, because I essentially had nothing to say to them, I had no intention of deceiving or manipulating them, and in principle, it is unknown whether there would have been any benefit in this hypothetical verbal interaction of ours.

Further, I did not consider any opportunities for increasing my well-being, increasing the comfort of my life, or growing my impact on nature. I either didn’t need this or didn’t want it.

All that remained was art. But which one? I was thinking about taking up fine art, dance, music or singing.

Fine art, a plus was that 25 years ago I made sketches that I personally liked, but it didn’t go any further. I did not choose this type of art, because as a result of the artist’s work, paintings and drawings remain that need to be placed somewhere. And for a beginning artist, this is a big problem.

Next on the list were dance, music and vocals, in my understanding they were in equal positions, but I chose dance because I felt an internal predisposition towards it, I heard that some people after 40 suddenly start dancing, i.e. this was not my unique path, but it was at least a little common, and I also found out on the Internet that there are ballet schools for adults in Moscow and St. Petersburg!

As I later found out, these schools appeared quite recently, around 2008, and initially they were located only in the capitals; previously there was no such direction at all. In ordinary ballet schools, they teach children from 4–6 years old, who by the age of 12 become “adult children”, they can do everything, and often stop to study.

The fashion for practicing ballet (classical dance) with adults (older children) aged 25–50 is a completely new and unexplored phenomenon.

“Ballet is a woman’s world, in which a man is only an honored guest.”

George Balanchine, Georgian-American ballet choreographer, 1904–1983.

Regarding gender discrimination. About half of the ballet studios fundamentally do not work with men, regardless of age, because this “confuses women”; and women are the main source of income. Women have the opinion that men “stink”, they “look in the wrong direction”, and they only need “this”. I.e. they believe that the main goal of a man who goes to practice ballet is to make his erotic fantasies come true, looking for hours at 40–50 year old fat women wearing 3 sets of clothes.

Unfortunately, no matter where I studied, with a new group, for the first 10 lessons, strong negativity came towards me from the ladies, then they resigned themselves and simply did not pay attention to me. However, if they suddenly noticed my presence, for example, during the first allocation of places in the hall, they tried to bite harder, showing that they were people, and I was something insignificant, like a pet.

Naturally, I learned to deal with this by simply ignoring most women.

The usual distribution was 1 in 10. It was rare that there were 2 or 3 men and I could compare women's reactions to other men. The most important factor for building relationships for girls (they were all girls!) was age, i.e. all women paid maximum attention to one man who was younger.

“Hidden man-haters” make up about 70% of the pack. Of the remainder, about 20% had a positive attitude towards me. And surprisingly, these 20% would have a positive attitude towards men regardless of age, beauty or social status. These women were simply completely different, with a different psychology, softer and friendlier. Their means of interaction with the opposite sex have not atrophied.

There were another 10% – these were “outspoken feminists” who were looking for the possibility of biting me at some point, but this was a completely uninteresting type. They were even worse than the bulk of man-haters. The tone was set by the silent 70% who carried hidden negativity, they despised the 10% who openly mocked men, and did not understand the 20% who treated us kindly.

I started taking ballet in September 2018 when I was 45 years and 4 months old. Before that, I practically did not do anything related to physical activity or art. Physical activity ended with karate and wushu in 1989. Art – flashed in a short period from 1992 to 1996.

At the beginning of September 2018, I came with East to St. Petersburg with the goal of studying for 1–2 weeks and stayed there for 4.5 months. It was very expensive in terms of money, it cost me a third of a million rubles [$5000], but a year later I returned and spent another 4.5 months from mid-September 2019.

I studied every day for 2–4 hours. I had unlimited passes to two ballet studios, and there were days when I was running from one studio to another to make it to my next class.

The day off was only on Saturday, then I went into the city. Despite the fact that I rented a room almost in the fine historical center of the city, I only had enough strength to eat and sleep. Although it’s more like this: after class I got home, went to bed, and then, after resting, I could eat something. Naturally, after several months of training, I lost about 15 kg of weight.

Then I had a break from visiting St. Petersburg due to the coronavirus epidemic. I lived in my city, where there were only two ballet studios that were “women only”, I managed to study in one of them for 4 months, from October 1, 2020 to March 11, 2021, but they still kicked me out, because the women's band was against it. I studied in the second studio from August 2021 to the end of 2021, but I was asked to leave because they had problems with having a men's locker room.

Sure, I could have found fitness or stretching classes, but I wasn't particularly interested in that.

In St. Petersburg, I studied in two ballet schools twice for 4 – 4.5 months at a daily rhythm, several hours a day, with 4 different groups. I had 3 main teachers. How many joint dances do you think have been learned with women? That's right, not at all.

The teachers tried to start somewhere, but even the simplest touching hands of a man and a woman clearly looked like harassment, because any woman was almost certainly married – and, therefore, caused such a violent flow of negative emotions, which was even expressed in a complete refusal to work, and was accompanied by obscenities. The initiative ended there.

I think the main reason was that most of the time I was the only male in the group. Almost certainly, if there was another permanent man, then the teachers could come up with a joint dance of two men, because in the modern world, a man dancing with a woman is something immoral and impossible.

It may seem that I had a negative attitude towards the ladies and what was happening. Rather, I distanced myself as much as possible from what could develop into a negative reaction. I switched my attention and went about my business. And I felt the negativity from others very well and this, of course, worsened my physical health.

But if I had a choice, I would still choose these women over a friendly male group, because men in my life did not interest me at all, and women carry something within themselves that has always attracted my attention. And my way of thinking is closer to women’s, I understand and feel them better.

All the teachers were obsessed with the correct execution of individual movements, they constantly drilled us on this topic, and it was wonderful.

There was only one teacher who tried to teach something more than a combination of 2–3 movements, but, like all the other teachers, she did not make sure that we did it well, because even what we did today was already the next lesson was falling apart.

Moreover, the teachers were, I believe, some of the best in the amateur field, they just didn’t really believe in us. This is about sad things.

I trained so intensively for only two seasons, and if I had extended my classes to 8–10 seasons, then everything would probably have been different, the attitude of women gradually, imperceptibly changed, and I believe that in 5 years they would have already treated I think it’s rather positive, and maybe even some joint work has appeared.

About the good. I really learned a lot. Of course, it was very expensive, but most of the things I can do cannot be learned from books or videos. I have come to terms with the situation that ballet school is a rare pleasure for me, and the path to art in my case will lie through my own inner work.

What I like. Of course, these are pirouettes and high jumps. This is amazing. I’m also starting to independently learn various combinations of movements, work with coordination and a sense of rhythm. By the way, these are necessary stages on the path to realizing even the simplest stage image.

During classes, I usually hid in the very corner of the hall, because I have an overdeveloped SPI (sense of personal insignificance), which I had to fight. I suppose it looked comical when a charming man, two meters tall, with good posture and long beautiful legs, constantly hides behind the backs of thin girls, trying not to catch the teacher's eye.

Taking ballet is pure narcissism, which is a direct conflict with my worldview.

Ballet is also physics and mathematics. When I started studying classical dance, I was surprised to discover that the human body can move in two modes. The first is the everyday mode, this is how most people move in life and this is how people move in common dances, and there is a second mode when a person moves using his body in a completely different way, this applies to ballet (classical dance). It is for this reason that ballet can be practiced at any age, you just need to use those capabilities of the human body that we have by nature, but are not used at all in everyday life.

May 1, 2020, Friday, in the evening I participated in my first Online class in ballet (classical dance) from 8:00 pm to 9:22 pm, in the middle of the lesson I paid 699 rubles [$10] for access to site materials for the period of May 2020, at the end of the lesson I took a screenshot, since the number of viewers was 666. In the next two months, I watched over 40 classes in a row and the number of viewers on this channel did not exceed 270.

Eduardo Battaner Lopez “Kepler. Movement of Planets. Dancing with the Stars”

“Galileo noted that ‘The universe is written in the language of mathematics’. Perhaps this idea was first written down in the Book of Wisdom of Solomon: ‘You have ordered everything by measure, number and weight’. Is also known the saying of Saint Isidore: ‘The highest of all things is number’. Kepler’s words will also take a worthy place in this series of quotes: ‘Geometry was before the world, and it was Divine. God gave the world geometric beauty, and it was His creation, and this beauty was in human hands’.

Kepler wrote in his book: ‘Most of the things that exist in the world were created due to God’s love for people’.

Although the book was very popular and thanks to it Kepler was able to devote his life to the search for the harmony of the world, it also caused criticism. The scientist personally made sure that the most outstanding minds of the time, and, in particular, Tycho Brahe, received a copy of his work. From the point of view of observers from the 21st century, it is very easy to find grounds for criticism of this treatise. There were not six planets, but six planets that were known to Kepler. And the scientist had to assume that in fact there could be more planets, but they are difficult to detect due to their small size, remoteness and imperfection of observation instruments.”

Gurdjieff and Ouspensky

Although I am not close to it, I still saved the text about these characters for further study. I am far from a mystical or religious view of the world. Yes, in my internal/external world matter/energy is felt in a very specific way, but these are only nuances of my subjective relationship with the world, while there is practically no mysticism/mystery in my existence. Everything in my life is measured, understandable, boring and predictable.

Judging by the literature, Gurdjieff used the method of “extreme influence” on a person. I practice the method of minimal changes; I don’t at all want to put pressure on my own or someone else’s psyche, or somehow adjust the world around me. I believe that in my case, a greater force of influence can play a negative role, and the weakest influence will be more beneficial for the process of my awareness.

Life-changing dance: how Gurdjieff’s sacred technique reveals human reserves (link in Russian)

https://dzen.ru/a/YeayNciXq3UZCN2a

“In his Eastern travels, Gurdjieff encountered many examples of the revelation of the extraordinary capabilities of the human body. The master found the shortest way to achieve such a state. It turned out to be a ritual dance of the Sufis.

A special way of spinning to hypnotic music acts on the human body as a catalyst. The body begins to react immediately, the adept gains, if not superpowers, then something very close to them.

These meditative dances, called ‘special ballet’ by Georgiy Ivanovich’s novices, began to play a major role among Gurdjieff’s methods aimed at achieving a state of ‘insight’.

For a beginner, Gurdjieff's dance is extremely difficult. The adept is required to perform very strange, unnatural movements for a person. They create such a load on the muscles, tendons and even the human psyche, which is simply impossible in everyday life.

But, in the end, ‘ballet’ turns out to be an extremely effective method of self-knowledge. Quite quickly, practicing it leads to the awakening of the higher mental centers of the human body, which leads to a state of ‘insight’.

‘My ballet is not a mystery,’ said Gurdjieff. ‘The task I set was to create an interesting and beautiful performance. Of course, there is a certain meaning hidden behind the external form; but I did not pursue the goal of showing and emphasizing precisely this.’

These dances were called unnatural, too controversial and sometimes even considered a manifestation of ‘Satanism’, since the detached faces of the students, immersed in deep dynamic meditation, gave the impression of being hypnotized or weak-minded.”

Gleb Davydov “Gurdjieff: the dancing provocateur” (link in Russian)

https://www.peremeny.ru/column/view/924/

“At the same time, Gurdjieff told Ouspensky something about the project of the ballet ‘Battle of the Magicians’:

‘Imagine that, while studying the movement of celestial bodies, say, the planets of the solar system, you built a special mechanism to convey a visual image of the laws of these movements and remind us of them. In such a mechanism, each planet, represented by a sphere of appropriate dimensions, is placed at a certain distance from the central sphere representing the Sun. The mechanism is set in motion, all spheres begin to rotate and move along given paths, reproducing in visual form the laws governing the movement of the planets. This mechanism reminds us of everything you know about the solar system. Something similar is contained in the rhythm of some dances. In strictly defined movements and combinations of dancers, certain laws are reproduced in visible form, understandable to those who know them. Such dances are called “sacred dances”. During my travels in the East, I witnessed many times how these dances were performed during sacred services in ancient temples.’

In particular, this can be interpreted as follows: by accurately reflecting the celestial dances at the microcosmic level, it will be possible to use these celestial dances for one’s own purposes, make changes to their macrocosmic scenario, and therefore influence the events taking place on Earth.

The fact that dance is one of the most effective forms of magical ritual, awakening and activating subtle energies, has been known since ancient times: a person who dances correctly acquires supernormal powers and can change the world around him. In ancient India, for example, dance was equated with the highest forms of yoga and was considered an act of creation, with the help of which a new space and a new situation can be formed. Lucian, in his treatise ‘The Dance’, reports that dance arose ‘with the origin of the first principles of the universe’.”

Music and mathematics

November 6, 2020, I bought a large Yamaha synthesizer for learning to play the piano. It was quite expensive, but in my opinion, this is exactly what I should do besides ballet.

November 8, 2020, Sunday, at 11:13 am, I was walking to my ballet class and noticed a car with a trailer parked outside our office, with a boat on the trailer with a Yamaha outboard motor. I took a photo for memory. This is a rare case, I do not remember the boats in the parking lot next to our office. When after 5 min. I got on the bus, this car had already left.

The synthesizer has been lying around unused for two years now, but I think I'll still find a use for it.

The question arises, why did I buy it? A few days before this event, I read an interview with a 12-year-old student at a choreographic school. It was written there that in addition to dancing, she plays the piano and likes it. I felt a sense of community and bought myself this toy.

I also learned that she enjoys studying mathematics. Therefore, I suppose higher mathematics is one of my future hobbies.

Computer games

This is a great way to socialize and kill time at the same time. Computer games are played en masse by stupid and narrow-minded lonely people who could not (or did not want) to realize themselves in the social world around them. That's just the way I am, what can I do.

Since the beginning of January 2020, I have been working several hours a day in the game “World of Warships” (WoWs), that is “a computer, client-side massively multiplayer online game in real time in the genre of an arcade simulator of naval battles of the First and Second World Wars.”

Several events in my life, paradoxically, are connected with this game. More on this later, in the corresponding chapter of the book.

The main purpose of computer games for me is to communicate with people. Massively multiplayer games, in my opinion, are ideal for this. And this “virtual communication”, as it turned out, is quite enough for me and there is absolutely no interest or need the real physical communication.

Real communication with people brings too much information, and it takes me a lot of time to fully understand this communication, or “grok”, as one fantasy character used to say:

“Stranger in a Strange Land (working title (in manuscript) ‘The Heretic’) – a fantastic philosophical novel by Robert Heinlein, received the Hugo Award in 1962. One of the few works of science fiction included by the Library of Congress in its list of books that shaped America.

The plot contains a lot of historical and philosophical allusions, being a biography of Valentine Michael Smith, a man raised by Martians, who returned to Earth and became the new messiah here. The publication of the novel caused a scandal associated with a too free, by the standards of censorship of that time, depiction of sexual life and religion.

Literary agent Lurton Blassingame immediately offered the novel to the publishing house Putnam's Sons, since, according to the terms of the contract, this publishing house was supposed to be the first to read Heinlein's next novel. Putnam agreed to publish the novel, but without the themes of sex and religion, which, according to Heinlein, was impossible. As a result, the publishing house still accepted the novel, but previously edited by Heinlein to 160 thousand words. It was published in 1961 with the final title ‘Stranger in a Strange Land’.” (Wiki)

Some people don't like sex and religion, so I try to distance myself from those things as much as possible. But, since I still have to quote the Bible sometimes, I once again apologize to the readers.

Insurance

“Now admit it—why do you serve with us?

“Because I’m a bad artist… Not by your standards – by mine. That's why I work for your agency, Dimmock, and earn for my living.

“So, in order not to lose this bread, you must see a beautiful lady and draw her without delay. We don’t have much or little time, one day, June 30th…”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:24:08.

On May 28, 2018, Monday, in the interval 5:45–5:51 pm, a tense conversation took place with East; she did not want (or could not) remember the exact date of our events in September 2017, as she later explained, she remembered the sequence of events of Fantastic Week, but couldn’t remember exactly what week in September 2017 they happened. At 5:53 pm I accompanied East to the door, she was getting ready to go somewhere.

Solar flares began 7–10 minutes after the end of our conversation, at 6:00 pm the first flare. Then, 20 minutes later in the office, I solemnly showed her the solar activity that had occurred. She was impressed:

xras.ru/sun_flares.html?m=5&d=28&y=2018

Index -1.4. Class C2.7 flare, area 2712, time from 8:04 pm to 8:12 pm (peak 8:10 pm).

The previous activity was on May 22–24, index -1.0; earlier in May there was no Solar activity. Subsequent activity occurred on June 6 (index -0.0, class C1.0 flare).

That is, we had a sharp, unpleasant emotional conversation and after a short period of time, quite violent solar activity began, lasting 2 hours from 6:00 pm to 8:12 pm, and the Sun remained calm a week before and a week after this event.

The question that I raised in a conversation with East was quite important for me, namely, I vitally needed a clear and pure witness to those events and her answer that she definitely did not remember the date did not suit me.

On that day, I began to think about what events that happened would help her remember this date. And a few hours later I found this, reliably documented event.

It was Insurance for our car, the date was written on it – Monday, September 11, 2017, East remembered that she started taking out it on Friday, September 8, 2017, as a result, on that day I went to the country house on my own for minibus. She only promised that she could come to me later and help me complete the “protective structure”.

Why is it important? To make sure that the information could not be changed by subjective human reflections and forgetfulness, the Spirit secured itself with a paper document with an appropriately self-explanatory name.

And the main thing that makes me think is that we receive this document regularly, every year. That is, in order for the insurance to end on a certain date, it must have been issued earlier, several years ago, also on that date.

Personal Infinity

“That's disgusting!”

“It's not disgusting. This is the latest achievement of modern science.”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:34:58.

What is the Personal Infinity from my point of view? Why do I regularly focus on it?

I feel this as a kind of bright state of living, being, when any external intervention inevitably fails. The invasion triggers some mythical process of “event processing” on the physical level. Which also can be called as an encounter with Event Horizon.

Why am I convinced that I have such a controversial artifact, archaic and useless in modern society? I would call it some kind of subconscious confidence, an inner instinct at the level of my subjective perception. Sometimes I go out of town to look at the stars and each time, being in almost complete darkness and seeing only stars in the sky, I discover that my immediate “outer physical world” is very specific. However, I am not at all sure that this physical basis is a consequence of the work of Infinity. At this stage of my life, optimally—this refers to Infinity as an abstract instrument of cognition.

Why did I decide that this supposed Infinity is a part of me, and not I – a part of it? Again, based on many years of observations, it seems to me that it is as elementary a part of me as an arm or a leg. Yes, early I used to think that it was part of the Spirit, but after a couple of decades of observations I came to the conclusion that this was not so, and the Spirit at the beginning of my path only played the role of a “manager”, but now it is increasingly and for a long time leaves me alone. My Infinity does not disappear and is not replaced by emptiness and the absence of something.

And so, I have absolutely no need for the Spirit to be nearby, I don’t feel the shortage for it, and my attitude towards its rare manifestations, I hope, is sincere.

Infinity is full of meaning, which it also creates. We can say that this meaning is Infinity.

Consciousness and thought (link in Russian)

https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/Человек_разумный

“The human brain perceives the external world through the senses, and each individual human is influenced greatly by his or her experiences, leading to subjective views of existence and the passage of time . It is usually said that people have consciousness, self-awareness, intelligence – all this in one way or another corresponds to the processes of thinking. They also talk about such qualities as self-awareness, sensitivity, wisdom and the ability to perceive relationships with oneself and with the environment. How far a person’s mental constructs or his experience correspond to the objectivity of the external physical world is a matter of debate, as well as what exactly is meant by the above terms and how correct their use is in principle.”

Thinking (link in Russian)

https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/Мышление

“A feature of thinking is the ability to obtain knowledge about such objects, properties and relationships of the surrounding world that cannot be directly perceived. This property of thinking is carried out through such inferences as analogy and deduction.

Thinking is associated with the functioning of the brain, but the very ability of the brain to operate with abstractions arises in the course of a person’s assimilation of forms of practical life, norms of language, logic, and culture. Thinking is carried out in diverse forms of spiritual and practical activity, in which the cognitive experience of people is generalized and preserved. Thinking is carried out in figurative and symbolic form; the main results of its activity are expressed here in the products of artistic and religious creativity, which uniquely generalize the cognitive experience of humanity. Thinking is also carried out in its own adequate form of theoretical knowledge, which, based on previous forms, acquires unlimited possibilities for a speculative and model vision of the world.”

Infinity began to clearly manifest itself after my catastrophe in my relationship with the world, which occurred in June 1996, but even earlier, I believe, there were its local manifestations.

The fact that this Infinity (perhaps in my subjective opinion) influences in some way the events around me in space and even separated by time is probably a sign of the initial filling of its energy. Of course, Infinity by definition and in the ideal case should not directly influence anything other than itself, but perhaps this is one of the paradoxes, and in order for it to take place, it needs to take energy somewhere and receive its Attributes, while maintaining strict distancing from the world.

In order to simplify the process of understanding the principles of its work, I try to become aware of myself through fictitious, creative, fantasy events and associations, because thinking and transforming illusory events is much simpler and safer.

Regarding the uniqueness of this Infinity, for some reason I always believed that every person has it. But over time, I tried to understand some of the actions of people, and through the awareness of these unsuccessful attempts, the idea became closer to me that this phenomenon does not have a significant manifestation among part of the population. For some things that a person does can destabilize the technological processes of Infinity, and since people regularly and en masse do these things, therefore, they are confident that they are not risking anything. And, therefore, their physical nature is somewhat different.

You understand perfectly well what kind of things I’m talking about, so I don’t dwell on them, these events and actions are not interesting to me, and naturally I avoid them, but I’m not going to convince people, especially since there is a possibility that what they do is natural and good for them.

The presence of this phenomenon does not provide great advantages, and in addition I have to check my life path to ensure that I do not harm yourself in a moral or physical sense. And naturally, on not causing harm and undue influence on the people around me.

Otherwise, I am a very ordinary person, an unremarkable, mediocrity, a kind of gray mouse, which suits me quite well.

In mid-summer 2017, an incident occurred. At that time, in the evening after work, I often went to our country house along a path that ran from a bus stop through a small forest. There was a fork in the center of the forest, and if you don’t turn in the right direction, you might end up in the wrong place. Since I almost always returned in complete darkness, when absolutely nothing was visible in the forest, I decided to count the number of steps to the fork. I did this for two days in complete darkness, even walking with my eyes closed. A week later, when I was walking along the same road during the day, I decided to count my steps. There were significantly fewer steps, 30–40. This made a strong impression on me.

The presence of my Infinity has a characteristic feature—the absence of personal attachments and any obligations. It feels like loneliness.

But loneliness is not like emptiness and separation, but more like wholeness, completeness and the bright and stormy activity associated with this. The world is present in perception, but in my consciousness it is becoming more and more limited. The more my awareness increases, the more limited my worldview becomes within certain limits. The more I perceive reality, the less I see and feel it. Worldview becomes a way (and hostage) of self-knowledge.

Any obligation inevitably loses, because it violates the very principle of the existence of Infinity, limiting it, which is impossible. The limitless cannot be limited.

Do the people around me and the events happening in my life influence me? No dependencies does not mean no influence. In my opinion, human life is to a greater extent a matter of socialization, taking into account the interests of other people and the necessary adjustment to their desires and needs. When I studied at the theater studio, adjustment was the main method of acting. To create a complete performance, it was necessary to interact with the partner, considering his emotional and mental impulses.

Perhaps the cycles of my behavior, when I am completely closed or when I once again open up and begin to be interested in the world around me, are also connected with the internal life cycles of the “breath” of my Infinity.

One of the functions of Infinity is the systematic destruction of peripheral objects and events. Naturally, we do not consider real objects, the emphasis is only on illusory, creative, fantasy ones.

What does it mean to “destroy” a fantasy object? Of course, this is different from damaging it or seeing a real object die.

This means “destroying” it in your own creative worldview. As for example in one of the classic films from the 70s of the 20th century, a girl leaves her home and “sees” her parents’ house, where she lived for many years, and which is already far from her and is still visible on the top of the mountain, burns out. Of course, it does not actually burn, but it burns in her imagination, and now her memory includes a virtual fact, which for her soul probably has more meaning than reality. Because she will never return there and will never know whether this house exists now.

Any object or phenomenon contains links and keys that can be used in your own understanding of the world. The resulting key is not directly related to the object, now it is a link that can either point to another object, alien to you, which again will soon have to be destroyed, or, more interestingly, this link may well lead to an object or phenomenon that was previously lost, dissolved in your worldview and ceased to have a separate meaning, even if it never mattered to you before.

(Written from August 14, 2022 8:55 am to August 15, 2022 8:15 pm)

The presence of Infinity seriously influences the worldview, for example, in the fact that the very minimum amount of matter and, accordingly, energy is enough for a person. We can say that he (this person) saves and is “satisfied with little”. But this is not so, he rather really does not need much according to his feelings. It can extract the necessary information and energy from a small volume of matter. He is not content with “what is”, he does not lower his appetites, excess matter and energy will probably be discarded and hopelessly turned into useless garbage in his life.

The situation of those who feel the external influence of Infinity is characteristic. In their life there will be a similar emotional message for minimal influence on the world around them, but in this case it will be a false imperative, clearly someone else’s influence, because they will feel this lie inside themselves and they will be missing something. For example, as in this fragment, a person craves something that I don’t understand:

(link in Russian)

https://nad-suetoi.livejournal.com/163672.html

“At the very bottom of the human being, there lives something that makes us languish and thirst for something more than the simple satisfaction of everyday bodily and mental needs. They cannot give a person real happiness: after all, in the end this always turns out to be not enough. A person, sometimes without realizing it, wants to become truly happy. And this, according to <…> and his hero, is possible only by participating in what came from another world, came from heaven. In the language of theology, the fullness of communion with God is that miracle, that happiness that offers a person <…>”

In my case, on the contrary, everyday events fully satisfy my needs and aspirations, because even the very minimum is enough to obtain the required depth of awareness.

So for a person, may well be enough – one day of his life, communicating with one person, eating one lunch and seeing one sunset, remembering one poem and performing one dance.

So we have the ability to extract the required amount of energy and information from a small amount of matter and, accordingly, making a minimal impact. I.e. Infinity is equal to secrecy, insignificance, inexpressiveness and lack of importance of the person.

In the case of Infinity, one instance of an event or a reference to it is enough to, if necessary receive any (even infinite) flow of information and energy in volume, depth and variety. A sort of “Noah’s Ark” of subjective perception.

The character of Infinity—to arbitrarily maximize or minimize the importance of individual objects of matter and energy, thereby, and possibly as a result of this, objects that fall within the scope of its active Event Horizon will inevitably undergo serious internal shocks and, accordingly, deformations that can lead to their transformation, division into elements, or even destruction.

All these possibilities, in the general, mass case, are speculative and have only limited interest for humans, because without external energy supply, the energy of the human soul will not be enough for these actions.

However, if for some external reasons some outer shell of his soul is destroyed and this person does not die, then something begins to feed his thoughts and feelings, he seems to gain access to some “infinite” source of energy.

There are well-established trends in the awareness of this rare situation.

First, people believe that this flow of energy represents the external Natural world.

The second option is that these are some “bad”, personalized external forces who are planning how to “enslave” him.

Of course, no one will consider the third option – that this is a reflection of the inner nature of a person.

Naturally, I don’t know the answer to this question, but according to my subjective life experiences, the first two options are not my case.

(The following paragraph was written on the evening of December 10, 2021)

Perception occurs on the physical plane, this is the so-called direct perception, everything that is seen and heard by the subject “directly”, and then transferred to the virtual plane and destroyed or transformed so that the person can move on. As an explanation of why everything happens so complicatedly, isn’t it possible to simply perceive and not destroy anything, the thought came to me that all this is similar to a child’s perception, when the world is understood literally, but due to the fact that reality and awareness of reality diverge – and a certain virtual, illusory plane arises, onto which the perceived is transferred, i.e. the virtual plan arises due to the impossibility reconcile the immediate perception “as is” with actual reality.

The spirit regularly gives me gifts, they are very different. Sometimes I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. The following chapters describe a whole scattering of them; the impact of some on my worldview was quite strong. I had to work hard to bring my emotional experiences and thinking to a general consensus.

Naturally, I will once again inform the reader that everything that is described below is just a product of my illusory subjective worldview, even though these events are based on real facts. After all, any fact can be ignored, but what happens if you notice “connections” and start analyzing them?

I attribute some funny effects to the influence of my Infinity:

1) Sometimes people, seeing me, seem to find themselves in some kind of “emptiness”; they try to understand what they need here now, as if all their thoughts had suddenly disappeared somewhere. This usually happens when I'm actively thinking about something.

2) People do not adequately perceive my condition, for example, in my youth there was a case when I was quite well, in a great mood, but to an external observer it seemed that I was crying.

3) People hear something that is not there and it seems to them that I said something, but I was actually silent, or they hear completely different words, not those that I said. This also includes the fact that people sometimes instantly forget what I told them just a minute ago. Therefore, if I speak to someone, I pronounce the words clearly, expressively, as simply as possible, and immediately try to understand what they really heard.

What I see and say does not always coincide with what my interlocutor sees and hears. And if I am prepared for this in advance and make a forced correction of my behavior; but this can be serious stress for the interlocutor, and in this case I strive to end the conversation as soon as possible, with minimal negative impact on the other person’s psyche.

Rapture of the Bride or Gift

“Who is that beautiful girl?”

“Her name is Melicenta. She's from Perador.”

“Perador, Perador… But this is something from the time of King Arthur?!”

“Absolutely right!”

“Oh my God! But these are the times of Hamlet, Macbeth, and…”

“Yes, they too… from there… Next door to the Macbeths, the princess from Perador.”

“But Perador hasn’t existed for many centuries?! So… it means that Melicenta and I are separated not by space, but by time. And this time is insurmountable!”

“Well, this is relative… How familiar are you with the problems of external order within the universe?”

“Do you mean Einstein's Theory of Relativity? I must admit, I’m not good at it…”

“Now I’ll try to explain it to you more popularly: let’s imagine a Universe of six dimensions. Well, the first four are taught in school – length, height, width and the time factor. The other two are a little more complicated. These are the ‘Sphere of material influence’ and the ‘Sphere of imagination’. Hence the six-dimensionality of space, and not four-dimensionality, as this one of yours… well, this one of yours erroneously claimed…”

“Einstein?”

“Yes, Einstein. Do you understand?”

“Frankly, not very much. I am an artist and am used to thinking in images, and not in the measurements of galaxies.”

“Artist… artist… Okay. Let's move on to imaginative thinking. Are you satisfied with the formula that everything created by our imagination must exist somewhere in the Universe?”

from the film “31 June”, episode 1, time 0:43:55.

In the middle of summer 2018, I discovered that on September 23, 2017, a very interesting event occurred. You can find information like this on the Web:

“Recently, articles have appeared on the Internet that an important astronomical event will occur on September 23, 2017, a symbolic description of which is given in the last and only prophetic book of the New Testament, ‘The Revelation of St. John the Theologian’, which in the ancient Koine Greek language is called ‘Apocalypse’.”

In the first English-language video describing this event with visualization of the movement of celestial bodies in the Sky Stellarium computer program, I was attracted by the final picture, in which, in addition to the date September 23, 2017, when the Rapture of the Bride took place, namely “12 stars, the Sun and the Moon lined up around the constellation Virgo in the sky” another date was present.

This date was September 9, 2017, or rather the transition between the days September 9–10, 2017, as “the date of the child’s exit from the mother’s womb (birth)”; of course this was the exit of Jupiter from the conventional connecting lines outlined between stars of the “body” of the constellation Virgo.

For me, the Gift consisted of a combination of several events that happened in that time frame:

1) My “Warrior Burial”, September 5–10, 2017;

2) Solar activity, September 6–10, 2017;

3) Rapture of the Bride, September 23, 2017, with the date mentioned as September 9–10, 2017.

Burial of a warrior

Victor Sanchez “The Teachings of Don Carlos (Practical use of the techniques of Carlos Castaneda)” (1996, link in Russian)

https://www.rulit.me/books/uchenie-dona-karlosa-prakticheskoe-ispolzovanie-tehnik-karlosa-kastanedy-read-93096-53.html

“In his books, Carlos Castaneda mentions the practice of warriors burying themselves in the ground (III 121–123), (VI 11–12). He reports that warriors bury themselves in the earth to gain purity, to receive instructions, or to cure an illness, but does not describe this experience in detail. <…>

At turning points in life, we can bury our old self in the Earth and allow a new self to be born.”

Initiation “Warrior's Burial” (link in Russian)

https://lastday.club/initiation-warrior-burial/

“As one of the methods of initiation, the most ancient ritual practice is used – the burial of a warrior. What we want to bury and leave in the ground dies within us, and our essence is reborn. <…>

The most ancient shamanic ritual practice, known in Siberia, Tibet, Altai, among the ancient Slavs, Eskimos, Indians… A lighter version is used by Castaneda's followers. Tougher – when accepting new fighters in some special forces.

… When we finished, we collected our things and went to our cars. Everyone was silent. Everyone was absorbed in themselves. We have been reborn, become a little wiser, a little deeper. We are no longer the same guys who walked into the forest a few hours ago. It was an early morning. Life was awakening around us. And we were reborn…”

I did something similar at the beginning of September 2017. In my case no rebirth was planned; for me it was only a forced procedure to cleanse my own karma, which I had been thinking about for many years and finally tried to implement. The attempt was unsuccessful, as a result I did not clear anything and remained the same worthless person with dirty karma as I was before. Of course, for me there was some important meaning in this procedure, but it was at the level of “going with a beautiful girl to an expensive restaurant”, and before Fantastic Week I had no idea that this could become something unique in my life. What’s interesting is that it was precisely the cultural illusions that I write about later in the book – influenced my life, i.e. virtual illusory delusions played an important role in fine-tuning my perception of the world, unless, of course, these are just another of my fantasies.

It’s also very cool that I found on the Internet (opened on December 29, 2021 at 1:10 pm), a quote with the direct text “And we were reborn…”, so I have the opportunity to speculate that this magical event has a cultural meaning a very definite goal, and regardless of my personal opinion, which, by the way, does not exist on this matter.

From the outside it may seem that I dream of pushing personal responsibility somewhere far away, but in fact my goal is different, I am trying to distance myself as much as possible in order to observe this illusory situation “from the outside”, since I have serious concerns about ongoing external manipulation with goals unclear to me. But since I have a choice of how to perceive all this, I allow that these goals are good and useful for me.

In the book 19+, chapter Fantastic Week, this date, the evening of September 9 – the day of September 10, 2017, is the time of my third and last attempt to “dive under the protection of the Earth” (this magical procedure can also be called “death and birth again (rebirth)”) for that unforgettable week, and every time I did this (three times in a week), after a few hours (the next day), flares of class X9.3, X1.4, X8.6 occurred on the Sun. Which in itself is a rather rare event; the Sun generates such flares no more than once every 2–3 years. Naturally, I am simplifying and mean “a series of outbreaks over one (or two) months”, i.e. these several flares form, in my opinion, one series and such an event occurs on the Sun no more than once every 2–3 years.

My previous full attempts were made somewhere in 1998, there were also several of them, over a period of six months, and then I was unable to extend them for more than 30 minutes (I began to suffocate from lack of oxygen). There were two incomplete attempts in June 2016 and June 2017, lasting no more than an hour each and they should not be considered for the reason that in these cases one side of the “burial” was not covered with earth at all, which of course produce any results, and was just a training session before the real event. I have never attempted to use this magical procedure again in my life.

I consider the combination of solar flares and the Rapture of the Bride to be an important and non-competitive event. What is a non-competitive event? This is an event that does not occur on its own, but is a clear consequence of another event or process. I. e. between two events there is an unconditional cultural connection that cannot be challenged in any way.

There is some sense in emphasizing the words “cultural connection”. This is a key point in understanding this dependence. If you “turn off” cultural perception, which in essence means perception through the illusions inherent in upbringing, then there will be no connection. And this cultural perception is imposed not only on you, my reader, but also undoubtedly on me, provoking an awareness of what is happening, following the direction and path laid down by certain forces.

If we consider the situation from an everyday point of view, then a non-competitive event is when one cat lives in a room and it has a bowl of food. She is not competing with anyone for this bowl, this bowl is definitely hers, and cannot belong to anyone else. The cat does not need to prove that this is her bowl. If there are two cats in the house, then regardless of the number of bowls of food, they will compete with each other for food. For example, a cat can eat food from its bowl and go to drive away its rival from the second bowl, etc.

I called this situation the “trump card”. If you have any arguments, then I can lay out this “trump card”, and you will not be able to challenge it in any way. This card will win by definition, because it “breaks” our gentle everyday worldview. Regardless of the issue we will discuss.

The lack of alternative to the perception of the “card” indirectly indicates the presence of Infinity. The impact of the “card” is reminiscent of the work of something that should not go beyond the Event Horizon, and only there devour real or fictional reality, like Stephen King’s Langoliers. The fact that we cannot “turn” the card, look at it “from a different angle” or somehow change its nature is an indication that the card is constantly and independently moving – for example, towards the perceiving person, this is possible if it simply “eats” this remaining road (our perception) to the goal (observer). A similar effect will be felt if the card is constantly moving away from the observer, producing more and more new perceptions in the subject (unwinding his perception).

If you doubt this, try to mentally “beat” this “trump card”. In my subjective opinion, the human mind is arranged in such a way that you cannot “interrupt” it, come up with objections, etc., your thinking is simply “will fall into a stupor”, turn off and “self-destruct”. I'm guessing this is the result of some genetic code being triggered.

In the process of analyzing the current situation, it is advisable to take into account other events described in this book and in the previous part, the book 19+. Why is this important, why pay attention and analyze the life of a particular person? Due to the polluted permissiveness and all sorts of garbage of our information space, if there is no “thick layer” of related activities, an ordinary person will refuse any apparent correspondence between events so far from each other and can begin to consider them more seriously only if there are some prerequisites in a person’s life, for “there is no smoke without fire” and this subject must undoubtedly have previously manifested itself in a certain way. And of course, where would we be without the rule that “a person is given something that he can overcome”, something that will strengthen him and that he can further use.

This connection, this non-competitive event, this “trump card”, this “something perpendicular” can only be present in our stream of thoughts. A chicken or a cat will not be conscious of this.

This card is located in a fantasy, fictitious space, as for example described in the film 31 June as the “sixth dimension”, the “sphere of imagination”.

And naturally, this trump card can only be leveled, absorbed and transformed by a higher level process, which may turn out to be the mythical Event Horizon.

Infinity itself is extremely interested in the presence of these technological processes (“trump cards”) in its Event Horizon, and collecting them resembles the stage of formation and activation of the Event Horizon, the maturation of Infinity in the process of obtaining the necessary attributes needed for its proper functioning. (Paragraph was written on August 18, 2022 at 9:28 am).

Apparently, this is how the human brain works; after it finds an important regularity between events, the next problem after “admiration for the poetic beauty of coincidences” is the task of destroying this association in order to remain free.

I see a third-party design in this – to put a person in a situation where he will be forced to manifest an Event Horizon in order to continue his normal everyday existence.

To this conclusion I came first intuitively, in the summer of 2021, then on January 1, 2022, the idea came to me that if in the process of imagination there are all the resources to create and destroy illusory objects, then in the case of the external existence of illusory fictitious objects there must also be an external physical process for their processing and disposal. I.e. this assumption can also be reached by purely logical inference.

I like a fragment from the novel Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Heinlein, 1961. (Opened on August 19, 2022 at 9:19 pm).

"Good. Mike, do you know what a gun is?"

"A gun," Smith answered carefully, "is a piece of ordnance for throwing projectiles by the force of some explosive, as gunpowder, consisting of a tube or barrel closed at one end, where the-"

"Okay, okay. Do you grok it?"

"I am not sure."

"Have you ever seen a gun?"

"I do not know."

"Why, certainly you have," Jill interrupted. "Mike, think back to that time we were talking about, in the room with the grass on the floor – but don't get upset now! The big man hit me, you remember."

"Yes."

"The other man pointed something at me. In his hand."

"Yes. He pointed a bad thing at you."

"That was a gun."

"I had thinked that the word for that bad thing might be 'gun.' The Webster's New International Dictionary of the English Language, Third Edition, published in-"

"That's fine, son," Harshaw said hastily. "That was certainly a gun. Now listen to me carefully. If someone points a gun at Jill again, what will you do?"

Smith paused rather longer than usual. "You will not be angry if I waste food?"

"No, I would not be angry. Under those circumstances no one would be angry at you. But I am trying to find out something else. Could you make just the gun go away, without making the man who is pointing it go away?"

Smith considered it. "Save the food?"

"Uh, that isn't quite what I mean. Could you cause the gun to go away without hurting the man?"

"Jubal, he would not hurt at all. I would make the gun go away, but the man I would just stop. He would feel no pain. He would simply be discorporate. The food he leaves after him would not damage at all."

Harshaw sighed. "Yes, I'm sure that's the way it would be. But could you cause to go away just the gun? Not do anything else? Not 'stop' the man, not kill him, just let him go on living?"

Smith considered it. "That would be much easier than doing both at once. But, Jubal, if I left him still corporate, he might still hurt Jill. Or so I grok it."

Harshaw stopped long enough to remind himself that this baby innocent was neither babyish nor innocent – was in fact sophisticated in a culture which he was beginning to realize, however dimly, was far in advance of human culture in some very mysterious ways, and that these naive remarks came from a superman – or what would do in place of a "superman" for the time being. Then he answered Smith, choosing his words most carefully as he had in mind a dangerous experiment and did not want disaster to follow from semantic mishap.

"Mike, if you reach a – 'cusp' – where you must do something in order to protect Jill, you do it."

"Yes, Jubal. I will."

"Don't worry about wasting food. Don't worry about anything else. Protect Jill."

"Always I will protect Jill."

"Good. But suppose a man pointed a gun at someone – or simply had it in his hand. Suppose you did not want or need to kill him, but you needed to make the gun go away. Could you do it?"

Mike paused only briefly. "I think I grok it. A gun is a wrong thing. But it might be needful for the man to remain corporate." He thought. "I can do it."

“Good. Mike, I am going to show you a gun. A gun is a wrong thing.”

“A gun is a very wrong thing. I will make it go away.”

“Don't make it go away as soon as you see it.”

“Not?”

“Not. I will lift the gun and start to point it at you. Like this. Before I can get it pointed at you, make it go away. But don't stop me, don't hurt me, don't kill me, don't do anything to me. Just the gun. Don't waste me as food, either.”

“Oh, I never would,” Mike said earnestly. “When you discorporate, my brother Jubal, I hope to be allowed to eat of you myself, praising and cherishing you with every bite, until I grok you in fullness.”

Harshaw controlled a seasick reflex he had not felt in decades and answered gravely, “Thank you, Mike.”

“It is I who must thank you, my brother – and if it should come to be that I am selected before you, I hope that you will find me worthy of grokking. Sharing me with Jill. You would share me with Jill? Please?”

Harshaw glanced at Jill, saw that she had kept her face serene – reflected that she probably was a rock-steady scrub nurse. “I will share you with Jill,” he said solemnly. “But, Mike, no one of us will be food today, nor any time soon. Right now I am going to show you this gun – and you wait until I say, and then you be very careful, because I have, many things to do before I am ready to discorporate.”

“I will be careful, my brother.”

“All right.” Harshaw leaned over, grunting slightly, and opened a lower drawer of his desk. “Look in here, Mike. See the gun? I'm going to pick it up. But don't do anything until I tell you to. Girls – get up and move away to the left; I don't want it pointed at you. Okay. Mike, not yet.” Harshaw reached for the gun, a very elderly police special, took it out of the drawer. “Get ready, Mike. Now!”– and Harshaw did his very best to get the weapon aimed at the Man from Mars.

His hand was suddenly empty. No shock, no jar, no twisting – the gun was gone and that was all.

Jubal found that he was shaking, so he stopped it. “Perfect,” he said to Mike. “You got it before I had it aimed at you. That's utterly perfect.”

“I am happy.”

“So am I. Duke, did that get in the camera?”

“Yup. I put in fresh film cartridges. You didn't say.”

“Good.” Harshaw sighed and found that he was very tired. “That's all today, kids. Run along. Go swimming. You, too, Anne.”

Anne said, “Boss? You'll tell me what the films show?”

“Want to stay and see them?”

“Oh, no! I couldn't, not the parts I Witnessed. But I would like to know – later – whether or not they show that I've slipped my clutches.”

“All right.”

<…>

The cameras were Mitchell servos; the projector was a Yashinon tabletop tank, with an adapter to permit it to receive Land Solid-Sight-Sound 4 mm. film. Shortly they were listening to and watching the events leading up to the disappearance of the empty brandy case.

Jubal watched the box being thrown at his head, saw it wink out in midair. “That's enough,” he said. “Anne will be pleased to know that the cameras back her up. Duke, let's repeat that last bit in slow motion.”

“Okay.” Duke spooled back, then announced, “This is ten-to-one.”

The scene was the same but the slowed-down sound was useless; Duke switched it off. The box floated slowly from Jill's hands toward Jubal's head, then quite suddenly ceased to be. But it did not simply wink out; under slow-motion projection it could be seen shrinking, smaller and smaller until it was no longer there.

Jubal nodded thoughtfully. “Duke, can you slow it down still more?”

“Just a sec. Something is fouled up with the stereo.”

“What?”

“<…> It looked all right on the fast run. But when I slowed it down, the depth effect was reversed. You saw it. That box went away from us fast, mighty fast – but it always looked closer than the wall. Swapped parallax, of course. But I never took that cartridge off the spindle. Gremlins.”

“Oh. Hold it, Duke. Run the film from the other camera.”

“Unh, oh, I see, That'll give us a ninety-degree cross on it and we'll see properly even if I did jimmy this film somehow.” Duke changed cartridges. “Zip through the first part, okay? Then undercranked ten-to-one on the part that counts.”

“Go ahead.”

The scene was the same save for angle. When the image of Jill grabbed the box, Duke slowed down the show and again they watched the box go away. Duke cursed. “Something was fouled up with the second camera too.”

“So?”

“Of course. It was looking at it around from the side so the box should have gone out of the frame to one side or the other. Instead it went straight away from us again. Well, didn't it? You saw it. Straight away from us.”

“Yes,” agreed Jubal. “'Straight away from us.”

“Out it can't – not from both angles.”

“What do you mean, it can't? It already did.” Harshaw added, “If we I had used doppler-radar in place of each of those cameras, I wonder what they would have shown?”

“How should I know? I'm going to take both these cameras apart.”

“Don't bother.”

“But-“

“Don't waste your time, Duke; the cameras are all right. What is exactly ninety degrees from everything else?”

“I'm no good at riddles.”

“It's not a riddle and I meant it seriously. I could refer you to Mr. A. Square from Flatland, but I'll answer it myself. What is exactly at right angles to everything else? Answer: two dead bodies, one old pistol, and an empty liquor case.”

“What the deuce do you mean, Boss?”

“I never spoke more plainly in my life. Try believing what the cameras see instead of insisting that the cameras must be at fault because what they saw was not what you expected. Let's see the other films.”

Harshaw made no comment as they were shown; they added nothing to what he already knew but did confirm and substantiate. The ash tray when floating near the ceiling had been out of camera angle, but its leisurely descent and landing had been recorded. The pistol's image in the:' stereo tank was quite small but, so far as could be seen, the pistol had done just what the box appeared to have done: shrunk away into the far distance without moving.”

Returning to the topic of this chapter, one of the elements of cultural illusion, fantasy fiction, which I encountered, paradoxically is the Bible, in which there is a fragment that is one of the most mysterious for the reason that it is alien to the rest of the text, it does not have “family connections” with other events in the book, and yes, he’s just superfluous! Although this fragment quite precedes Armageddon and other Apocalypse.

In my opinion, what is fundamental is not that there is a reference to religious literature, but that there is a reference to a source that is perhaps two thousand years old. And his religiosity, oddly enough, is the best protection of information from damage and loss during its transportation along the time line.

“Chapter 12.

12:1 And there appeared a great wonder in heaven; a woman clothed with the sun, and the moon under her feet, and upon her head a crown of twelve stars.

12:2 And she being with child cried, travailing in birth, and pained to be delivered.

12:3 And there appeared another wonder in heaven; and behold a great red dragon, having seven heads and ten horns, and seven crowns upon his heads.

12:4 And his tail drew the third part of the stars of heaven, and did cast them to the earth: and the dragon stood before the woman which was ready to be delivered, for to devour her child as soon as it was born.

12:5 And she brought forth a man child, who was to rule all nations with a rod of iron: and her child was caught up unto God, and to his throne.”

Apocalypse of St. John the Theologian, King James Version (KJV)

When in July 2018, I discovered and told this to my companion East, her first reaction was “how can you impinge our Jesus!” I calmed her down and said that some unknown child was being born here, nothing more…

Well, or this can be interpreted as how a certain person unexpectedly learns about his origin. It’s interesting, I read this version on the Internet, that this is not necessarily the birth of a child, but can be a cardinal event in a person’s life.

This can also be called “second birth”, or rebirth, or revelation, or if you use Greek, it is called “apocalypse”. What is curious is that the birth of a child cannot be a revelation for him, but rebirth clearly coincides in significance for his consciousness with revelation. I.e. Apocalypse (Revelation) is probably more connected with the rebirth of a person during the conscious period of his life.

(Discovered January 8, 2022 at 4:56 pm, link in Russian)

Young crocodile: interesting facts. Birth and childhood

https://fb.ru/article/383026/detenyishi-krokodila-interesnyie-faktyi

“Hearing the cries of the babies, the crocodile rakes the nest, freeing them. Scientists have repeatedly recorded how a female crocodile carries her young in a mouth lined with powerful teeth. She does this extremely carefully, without causing any harm to the children.”

Somewhere in the fall of 2018, about six months later, after I learned about The Rapture of the Bride and read chapter 12 of Revelation, I had a strong subconscious feeling that the Dragon character in it was either a close relative or even the husband of this fair Virgo. And that his goal was precisely to protect the child. But these are all just my emotions, of course. For dragons, things are probably different, not like for crocodiles…

I also remembered that as a child I liked making plasticine figures of dinosaurs.

Another fragment from Revelation 12:

“12:15 And the serpent cast out of his mouth water as a flood after the woman, that he might cause her to be carried away of the flood.”

It’s very strange that the fire dragon sends a river in the Wife’s footsteps, not fire. Water is the most difficult thing he can produce, because it is the opposite of the element of fire. A very unusual dragon, not European at all… maybe it’s Chinese?

(Opened January 20, 2022, around 12:46 am)

Chinese dragon

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_dragon

“The Chinese dragon (Chinese: 龍; pinyin: lóng), also loong, is a legendary creature in Chinese mythology, Chinese folklore, and Chinese culture at large. Chinese dragons have many animal-like forms such as turtles and fish, but are most commonly depicted as snake-like with four legs. Academicians have identified four reliable theories on the origin of the Chinese dragon: snakes, Chinese alligators, thunder worship and nature worship. They traditionally symbolize potent and auspicious powers, particularly control over water.

(link in Russian)

https://ru.wikipedia.org/wiki/Китайский_дракон

“According to Chinese beliefs, the moon serpent lives in rivers, lakes and seas, but is also capable of soaring into the skies. Traces of the deity of moisture and rain, originally associated with the cult of fertility , clearly appear in it. Rituals for making rain were not complete without images of a dragon already in the 6th century BC.”

On January 19 (or 20), 2022, a new event began in the World of Warships game, this time dedicated to the ships of Pan-Asia (including China), the Dragon port was updated with a floating little dragon.

Update 0.11.0 – Pan-Asian Cruisers: Part 1

https://worldofwarships.eu/en/news/game-updates/update-0110-pan-asian-cruisers-part-1/

Research work “Could a crocodile swallow the Sun?” (section of “Exact Sciences and New Technologies”, link in Russian)

https://nsportal.ru/ap/library/drugoe/2018/05/08/issledovatelskaya-rabota-mog-li-krokodil-proglotit-solntse

Naydorf M. I. “Essays on European myth-making” ( publ. Odessa, 1999, opened January 22, 2022 at 2:46 pm, link in Russian)

https://www.sites.google.com/site/marknaydorftexts/myth-making

“Myth summarizes experience that has not lost its significance for the present and future. Therefore, the myth speaks of what always exists, although in the form of a story about what happened once upon a time. This apparent contradiction between the present and the past is easily removed by the observation that the myth interprets events that once happened and have eternal significance, or have been constantly repeated since then, i.e. about Beginnings that have an eternal continuation. For example, about the beginning of the world, about the first people, or about ‘where did fire come from’ or ‘why does an elephant have long ears’…

I.3. ‘STOLEN SUN’

Fairy tale and myth are closest relatives. The difference is that a fairy tale is a fiction, and this is accepted from the very beginning, and a myth is alive only as long as it is wholeheartedly believed in. The myth of a neighboring people or the myth of our ancestors, having lost the power of authenticity, turns into a fairy tale. Some fairy tales especially clearly preserve the features of their mythopoetic past. These include the very famous fairy tale ‘The Stolen Sun’ by Korney Chukovsky…

The disappearance of the sun appears here as an act of gigantic cosmic drama: some world evil, personified by the alien Crocodile, disrupted the normal course of life. The death of the world is coming…

It is precisely the scale of events that they acquire in this fairy tale that brings it closer to its prototype and source – myth. In our case, to the ‘sun’ myth according to the accepted classification of myths, or ‘solar’ (from the Latin ‘sōl’ – sun).

Myth exists in the collective consciousness of the people as an eternal or, better to say, timeless plot-semantic core (‘archetype’), which, when presented, can become overgrown with various and not at all necessary details. At the center of the myth cited by Chukovsky in the tale of the sun is the idea of the world as a giant pendulum, oscillating between Light and Darkness, between Existence and Non-existence, despite the fact that this oscillation itself reflects the struggle of world forces, friendly and hostile to man (tribe, clan, community, i.e. what can be designated by the concept ‘we’). In The Stolen Sun the Crocodile and the Bear personify these forces.

The choice of the Bear as a cultural hero is probably explained by the fact that the bear is the traditional totemic ancestor of the ancient Slavs, the founder of the clan, the protector of the tribe, the teacher of life. The crocodile, in contrast to the bear, is an exotic animal, familiar to our distant ancestors only from pictures, but also known for its ruthless strength. In a thousand-year-old manuscript he is depicted as a fantastic bristling monster with wings that make him look like a dragon.”

And if it is not possible to beat this “trump card”, then perhaps it will do one interesting thing. Namely, it will transfer this entire History into a fictional, fantasy, illusory, creative world, just like a small hole gives a barely noticeable leak, which over time leads to the sinking of a giant ship. (Paragraph was written on the evening of April 19, 2021)

I wondered how my Infinity might feel from the outside? The most attractive option for me is that from the outside it can be bordered by a creative Event Horizon, i.e. a working space on the border with reality, in the zone of action of which the processing of “real” and the creation and subsequent destruction of temporary fictitious, illusory events takes place. That is, people who fall within the zone of action of the Event Horizon will have creative, illusory, but at the same time false thoughts that are not related to their reality.

If this has even a slight chance of authenticity, then my desire to feel myself may well lead to the fact that I involuntarily attract to my Infinity some external events, as it seems to me, “that are directly related to me”. I.e. we subconsciously desire something, and now – oops, life gives us something very similar. There is a small flaw in this scheme, namely that I am not at all close to religious topics. This topic has never interested me, and still doesn’t interest me. Perhaps this is a consequence of my practicality.

On the importance of Rapture of the Bride event. I added it to material of the book because a specific date was mentioned, September 9–10, 2017, and of course for the reason that the associations that arise when interpreting this event fit into the general event sequence of the book. And this event is not the main or super-important for me, my Fantastic Week is a fully completed event, everything before or after it is added if a possible connection is felt.

East asked me, is there anyone else who was affected by the Rapture of the Bride event? Perhaps there is, but it is important to understand that if a person, after an event, or knowing about an upcoming event, adjusts his life or gives significance to facts that otherwise he would not have given significance without this event, then his involvement in this action is very controversial.

In my case, there were personal experiences and activity in the physical world, I was writing my first book 19+, in the middle of writing it, Solar activity occurred, and then, after finishing writing the book, I learned about the Rapture of the Bride. The impact of this Solar activity on me is quite insignificant, I “cleaned up my tails” and removed unnecessary garbage from my life, became a little more friendly towards the people around me and much more responsible for my actions, and received some additional feeling of internal stability. I am an ordinary, narrow-minded person, with “average statistics” thoughts and feelings, nothing special, an ordinary person.

The observer factor

If there is no person to whom, for some reason, these events are important, then they will very quickly “dissolve in the infinity of the world”.

There is also no need for excessive “reliability” or “plausibility” of events. The main thing is that they will be small, separated from other events, unconditional for the mind, not rejected by human feelings and have a supposedly fantasy, illusory essence, i.e. events that the personal Infinity could split and increase its potential.

This book is precisely dedicated to such “unliquid assets”, useless incidents, which I looked for from the world around me in order to first put together the puzzle, and then, perhaps, divide it into original elements. And this story is interesting to me in its further development…

Description of the Rapture of the Bride event on one of the Internet sites (the date September 9–10, 2017 is not mentioned).

Rapture of the Bride Apocalyptic date September 23, 2017 from the standpoint of astronomy and astrology (link in Russian)

http://astrokras.narod.ru/pub/sun-virgo-2017.htm

“On September 23, 2017, we will see the constellation Virgo, in which the Sun will emerge. The Bible speaks of the same phenomenon in the Apocalypse, and describes ‘a woman clothed in the sun’ – the Virgin Mary. In addition, these events will unfold exactly on the hundredth anniversary of the appearance of the Virgin Mary in the Portuguese city of Fatima. At the same time, we know that the hundredth anniversary is an important milestone.

Patrick Archbold goes on to say that ‘November 20, 2016 will begin an astronomical event that will last nine and a half months, and which, disturbingly, will culminate in exactly another Revelation event. And although I am not an astronomer, all the research I have conducted suggests that this phenomenon is unique of its kind in the observable history of mankind.

On November 20, 2016, Jupiter (the King) will enter the body (womb) of the constellation Virgo (that is, the Holy Virgin). Jupiter, given its retrograde motion, will remain in the ‘womb’ of Virgo for nine and a half months. This period corresponds to the duration of pregnancy for a normal, slightly post-term baby.

After nine and a half months, Jupiter will again leave the womb of the constellation Virgo. During his exit (birth) on September 23, 2017, we see the constellation Virgo, followed immediately by the Sun (‘the woman clothed in the sun’). At Virgo's feet we see the Moon. And on her head we find a crown of twelve stars: it is formed by nine stars of the constellation Leo, as well as three planets – Mercury, Venus and Mars.

‘By coincidence’, these apparitions will coincide with the hundredth anniversary of the apparition of the ‘woman clothed with the sun’, that is the Virgin Mary at Fatima, which occurred in 1917. The described star parade will culminate just three weeks before the anniversary of the miracle, when the sun ‘danced’ (another sign in the sky) and was observed by thousands of people.

And for almost a hundred years that followed, we were able to watch as Our Lady’s warnings were fulfilled with amazing accuracy. Humanity has not stopped trampling on God, and we have experienced terrible wars, the extermination of entire nations…

…

In 2016, scientists recorded the brightest aurora on Jupiter in the entire history of observations.”

(A fragment from another article, here the date September 10, 2017 is already mentioned).

Revelation 12 (author Slavik, link in Russian)

http://nostradamys.ru/deva12.html

“Jupiter begins to enter the womb of Virgo on October [November] 21, 2016 and remains there for about 9 months. It begins to emerge from the womb area around September 10, 2017, and after the 23rd, it flies away. This is very important, there are similar coincidences in history, but it is the 9-month cycle of the planet’s retention in the abdomen with such proximity to the center of the womb that is unique in about 7000 years.

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