The Secret Life of the Two-Faced Virgin. Part 1

The Birth of Natasha

The arrival of every person into this world is a special act predetermined by fate. The country, the family, and the moment in which a new inhabitant of planet Earth is born determine their future destiny. Our heroine was fortunate to come into this world not alone, but together with her twin sister. Yet the very birth might not have happened, as the doctors persistently urged the mother of the future sisters to undergo an abortion, frightening her with claims that she had serious pregnancy complications, that she would be unable to carry the child to term, and that she would die during childbirth. Soviet medicine at that time did not know what ultrasound was, so the question of how many children would be born and of what sex remained a great mystery for expectant mothers in the USSR. Our heroine was born in a Soviet maternity hospital in the year when the Moon was conquered by the Apollo 11 lunar module, when the USSR experienced a military conflict with China, and when the first message was transmitted through the ARPANET network (the prototype of the Internet), in 1969. Her birthday, July 10, was also quite unusual, as it coincided with another anniversary of the adoption of the first Soviet Constitution of 1917, which established the dictatorship of the proletariat and nationalization. According to legend, on that same date in the year 1040, Lady Godiva rode naked through the city of Coventry on horseback in order to compel her husband to reduce the unbearable taxes imposed on the townspeople. If we trust numerology, the symbolic meaning of the birth number “10” signifies “the beginning and the end, the alpha and the omega, the first and the last.” Every Christian will easily recognize in these words the well-known sayings of John the Theologian in his work The Apocalypse.

Moreover, in the Old Testament chapters of the biblical books, the date written in calendar form as “the tenth day of the seventh month” (July 10) corresponds to one of the most significant Jewish holidays – the “Sabbath of rest,” or the Day of Atonement, Yom Kippur, when the name of God (Yahweh) was pronounced in the Temple only once a year. It is from this Jewish holiday that the expression “scapegoat” originates, as on this day two goats were offered in sacrifice: one was killed, and the other was released to die in the wilderness. Such is the “tenth day of the seventh month,” the day our heroine came into the world.

After being discharged from the maternity hospital, the sisters were reunited. It was at that moment that their shared life as twin sisters began – with identical toys, hairstyles, clothing, and shoes. However, their appearance was not identical, as our heroine was a head taller and larger than her sister, who was very small and fragile. Their resemblance was limited to their facial features, while their figures were completely different. So it was impossible to confuse them. Their personalities also differed. Natasha, as the older sister, possessed strong will and assertiveness, and she always protected her younger sister, who had a weaker character. The life of twins is a world of its own, with relationships unlike those of other children, when everything is shared between two – a room, toys, classmates, friends, and acquaintances. It also means sharing one birthday. For most people, this day belongs only to them – the gifts, the flowers, the attention. But twins, especially in childhood, are forced to divide this day with their “other half.” Moreover, gathering guests for two birthday children at once was also a problem, especially as they grew older, because guests had to spend money on two gifts instead of one. Therefore, with each passing year, bringing friends and acquaintances together for a celebration during the summer vacation season became a real challenge for Natasha and her sister.

According to scientists who have studied multiple pregnancies, communication between twins begins while they are still in their mother’s womb; in other words, they begin to acquire social and communication skills even before birth. And this is precisely the circumstance that may distinguish twins from other individuals and determine their future destiny. One confirmation of this may be an unusual habit of Natasha and her sister – they had two favorite dolls, both of which the sisters named the same: Lyo-nyechkas. The dolls had no hair; they were completely bald. When their parents bought them new dolls, Natasha and her sister still played with the old ones or plucked the hair from the new dolls. And they always played with both dolls at the same time, never with just one. Their parents could not understand what caused this twin-like habit. But in fact, each of the two bald dolls was, in a sense, a reminder of their interaction with the bald “little dolls” in their mother’s womb.

Yet why the twin sisters felt the need to interact not with one doll, but only with two, remains to this day a mystery still awaiting discovery. Although there is one possible explanation: in their mother’s womb, Natasha was not with just one sister, but with two. This fact may be the most significant explanation for Natasha’s behavior. As she grew older, Natasha learned that her mother had carried three, not two fetuses (infants). But that is another story, a secret yet to be uncovered.

Parents. Relationship with Her Brother

Natasha was also fortunate when it came to her parents. Her father, Nikolai Pavlovich, was a tall, handsome brunette with a stately figure and remarkable physical strength. Yet his character was modest and kind. When Natasha was born, her father worked as a shop supervisor at a machine-building plant and studied in the evening program at the Polytechnic Institute. Her mother, Maria Alexeyevna, was also a very beautiful woman; she had graduated from a culinary school and worked as a cook at the same plant as her husband. In character, however, she differed from her husband, as she was quite vain and self-centered – something that later greatly complicated Natasha’s life. But despite such differences in temperament, the parents of the twins lived in love and harmony.

There was also an older child in the family – a son, who was 4 years old at the time the twins were born. If our heroine was fortunate with her parents, then with her brother she was disastrously unlucky. The birth of two sisters was met by the boy, who had an egocentric personality, with jealousy that later grew into pathological hatred, accompanied by numerous direct attempts to kill his sisters or to arrange “accidents” for them.

Before her birth, Natasha’s parents lived in a private house where they rented a room while waiting for their cooperative apartment – a two-room flat they had already paid for halfway – to be completed. But after the birth of the twins, the state immediately provided them with a two-room, unrenovated apartment on the first floor, with one walk-through room, shared outdoor facilities, and a cellar. A few years later, the family received a four-room apartment from the state in a new building on the 8th floor with all amenities, and the cooperative apartment under construction was given to the grandmother – the mother’s mother – who was brought from the village to the city, where she settled with the mother’s younger brother.*

Natasha’s early childhood was not as joyful or carefree as that of most children. Together with her sister, she caused her parents a great deal of trouble. Life for Soviet women was not easy, as maternity leave lasted no more than 3—6 months, after which a child had to be placed in daycare or left with a grandmother. Shopping for groceries took a long time, as stores had huge lines, and the shortage of most essential household and children’s goods made the lives of Soviet mothers a heavy burden. As Natasha’s mother later said, “She spent half her life standing in queues.” Clothes also had to be sewn or knitted at home. Instead of diapers there were mountains of cloth swaddles that had to be washed daily, and instead of automatic washing machines – everything was washed by hand. Managing one child in a home with no modern conveniences, during breaks between work, was difficult; managing three children was three times harder.

Seeing how hard their mother worked, one day Natasha and her sister decided to help her with housework. The sisters “cooked” porridge, destroying an entire month’s supply of grains and pasta by mixing everything together in a basin and pouring water over it. When their mother came home, she scolded the girls, and afterwards cried for a long time. Another favorite pastime of the sisters was ripping wallpaper off the walls, for which their mother also punished them.

Natasha and her sister rarely heard affectionate words or praise from their mother, and only in the presence of others or relatives. At home, she did not call her daughters by their names, only by nicknames she had invented: Natasha was “cow” or “Sivka-Burka,” and her sister was “cracker” or “dry twig.” It is hard to say what caused such an attitude – whether exhaustion from domestic routines and poor living conditions, or problems at work – but the phrase “you amaze me in batches” often came from her lips directed at her daughters. Natasha’s mother clearly had not adopted the experience of her own mother, who had raised seven children, including two older twin brothers, who had also caused the grandmother many troubles. It was precisely this attitude of their mother toward Natasha and her sister that caused the daughters to drift farther and farther away from her, trusting her neither with their secrets nor their problems. But there were joyful moments in Natasha’s life as well, when she and her sister would put on entire performances for guests. They sang, recited poems, and even staged puppet-theater shows.

Natasha and her sister hardly attended kindergarten like other children. Rather, their parents enrolled them, but something there displeased them. What exactly Natasha did not like, she never understood. Perhaps it was that boys and girls slept in the same rooms, or simply the collective environment away from family. Natasha and her sister would run away from kindergarten and go home. Their mother would take them through a private housing area to the trolleybus stop, then they rode several stops by trolleybus. By that time, Natasha already knew her exact address and last name. She and her sister would crawl through a hole in the fence and walk to the trolleybus stop. They would get on the trolleybus, ride exactly two stops, and get off. All the passengers would ask the girls where their parents were, and Natasha would reply that they were going home by themselves. Natasha and her sister ran away from kindergarten many times. After the last time, their mother decided it was better for the girls to stay at home. By then, Natasha and her sister had begun to fall ill often. According to their mother, their sicknesses had been caused by a vaccination administered by a nurse from the clinic. But in truth, the cause of their deteriorating health was the jealousy of their older brother.

When Natasha was three years old, a rat appeared in the cellar where food was stored, and it bit their father. After that, the father forbade his son and daughters to go into the cellar, because he had placed bread there covered with rat poison. But the brother, left alone with his sisters, climbed into the cellar and forced them to lick what was on the bread. Natasha and her sister, remembering their father’s warning, refused to lick the poisoned bread because it was life-threatening. But their brother insisted that his sisters taste the rat poison.

Although childhood memory usually does not allow recalling life events before the age of five – except the most emotional or dangerous – Natasha and her sister remembered that day very well. On that day Natasha fell outside, and an ambulance took her unconscious to the hospital. Her twin sister suffered a heart attack, doctors later even diagnosing a congenital heart defect, and for the first time they discovered serious vision problems. Of course, Natasha could not say with certainty whether she had licked the rat poison at age three or not. But considering that rat poison, in small doses when it does not kill, affects the respiratory center, the heart, and the retina, the conclusion is clear: their brother had indeed “treated” his sisters to poison. After that fateful day, Natasha spent most of her childhood in hospitals and sanatoriums with a diagnosis of bronchial asthma, which she suffered from until the age of thirteen. Another hardship for Natasha was a speech defect – stuttering. What caused it, neither she nor her parents knew. Only when she grew older was she able to almost overcome her stutter, though under strong emotional stress it still made itself known.

The Baptism of Natalia and Her Sister

After Natasha became ill, her mother took her and her sister to their grandmother, Pelageya Afanasyevna (their father’s mother), in the village. The grandmother brought her granddaughters to a private house where an old priest lived. That was how the secret baptism of Natasha and her sister took place – the priest dipped them one after the other into a basin of water. There was something unusual in this whole baptismal process, because Natasha remembered the moments of her baptism very clearly. The little crosses that the priest hung around the necks of Natasha and her sister were eventually lost. The names that Natasha and her sister received during the baptism also remained a mystery.

A Dangerous Situation with Gypsies. Loss of 50% of Vision

From childhood, Natasha and her sister were afraid of gypsies. When the family had just moved into their new four-room apartment, gypsies often came to their building. One day, Natasha was home alone. The doorbell rang. She approached and asked, “Who is it?” Looking through the peephole, she saw three gypsy women. They told Natasha to open the door, saying they wanted to look at her red coat, which she wore at the time. They also said they knew her sister and her parents, and that she and her sister were twins. Natasha replied that she would not open the door for them. The gypsies began knocking on the door and pulling hard on the door handle. Natasha became frightened and crawled under the bed. She stayed there until her parents came home. The gypsies continued pounding on the door for a long time and shouted something.

Since ancient times, there have been cases where gypsies kidnapped only one of the twins, because it was believed that twins possessed a rare gift. The biblical story also points to a certain chosenness of twins, since one of the twins, Jacob, became the founder of the God-chosen people of Israel after he “wrestled with God.” In fascist concentration camps, cruel experiments were likewise carried out on twins in attempts to uncover their hidden abilities. The Bulgarian prophetess Vanga called twins “warriors of Light.” In Soviet times, it was forbidden to speak both about faith in God and about the hidden abilities of a person that had no relation to the material world. It is possible that Natasha’s parents noticed certain peculiarities in the behavior of their daughters but concealed them carefully so as not to fall under KGB persecution and to avoid ruining their children’s lives – and their own.

At the age of ten, Natasha went to a sanatorium in Yalta for vacation, where she caught a cold, and a severe exacerbation of bronchial asthma began. She was given many different injections that were prohibited for her due to her drug allergies. After one of the injections, she completely lost her vision, as if the light had been switched off. Only eight hours later did her sight begin to return little by little, but it never fully recovered – only about 50%.

A doctor who worked at the children’s sanatorium took Natasha to a certain clinic in Yalta, where the doctor’s grandfather worked. Natasha remembered the long corridors, with carpets everywhere – on the floors and on the walls. The most unusual thing was the absence of queues. Natasha’s eyes were examined for a long time using some sort of equipment. Most likely, it was a specialized medical facility for VIP members of the Soviet nomenklatura. After the examination, the old doctor told his granddaughter that he had taught her always to look closely at the follicles in the eyes. He said that Natasha had very large follicles and that such an organism possessed a strong self-defense mechanism – so strong that even pneumonia would pass without a single pill. But that did not make things easier for Natasha. Her vision was permanently damaged. From that year on, she was forced to wear glasses for reading and later permanent-wear contact lenses.

An Unsuccessful Attempt by Natasha’s Brother to Hang Her and Her Sister. The Brother’s Dangerous Games

Despite the fact that Natasha’s parents punished her brother for the incident with the bread laced with rat poison, the hatred he felt toward his sisters only grew stronger in the six- or seven-year-old boy. One day, an incident occurred that led Natasha’s parents, following the advice of relatives, to send their son for a year to another city to be raised by the mother’s brother. After that, the mother never again left her son alone for long with her little daughters while he was still living at home. She had to quit her job and spent eight years as a housewife, which was highly disapproved of in Soviet times. One day, after stepping out briefly to the store, the mother returned home to a horrifying scene: the daughters were standing on stools, with nooses from makeshift gallows tightened around their necks. Natasha’s six-year-old brother had made the gallows, placed his sisters on the stools, put the nooses around their necks, and tightened them. All that remained was to kick the stools out from under their feet. Had the mother returned just a few minutes later, there would have been no one to write this book – and no one it could be written about. It is hard to say how such a young boy could have managed on his own to construct gallows and plan everything in such detail in order to get rid of his sisters. But it appears that this could hardly have happened without the influence of dark forces. Well-known are the cases of demonic possession, including accounts by the Apostle of entire legions of demons entering a person. Not to mention Satan himself entering Judas, who betrayed Christ. But one fact is clear: evil, working through the brother, tried from early childhood and throughout their entire lives to take the lives of Natasha and her sister.

A year after returning from their uncle’s, the brother harbored even greater resentment toward his sisters because he had been forced to live temporarily away from their parents. Realizing that directly harming his sisters could lead to consequences and punishment, he began arranging “accidents” during dangerous “games” he forced them to play. These games involved jumping from a wardrobe to a bed, from one bed to another. He made a bow and arrows, attaching real needles to the tips, and forced them to run through doorways while he shot them with these arrows. On one occasion, Natasha’s sister jumped and hit her head hard against the wall near the bed, losing consciousness for a short time.

When the family moved to an apartment on the 8th floor, the older brother’s “games” became more sophisticated. He forced his sisters to walk along the balcony railing on the 8th floor, holding only onto the clothesline. This was a “circus act game.” But he himself did not walk along the railing. Natasha and her sister were then six or seven years old, and he was ten or eleven. If Natasha refused to play, he would hit her. When the sisters successfully walked along the railing, he became very angry, apparently expecting the opposite outcome. Natasha and her sister were children and did not understand this. This continued for many years until the sisters grew older and began to recognize the danger of the games their brother proposed. When Natasha was ten to twelve years old (and her brother fourteen to sixteen), he began inventing “challenge-games.” One of these challenges involved crawling from one balcony to another in adjacent rooms. Natasha said it was suicidal and not worth doing. But the brother crawled across the balcony partition on the 8th floor. Natasha and her sister wanted to stop him, but it was impossible – he was stronger than they were. The sisters were terrified and told him he had gone mad, that he could fall and break himself. After that, he tried to force the sisters to crawl across, but they flatly refused. Natasha and her sister were no longer naive children, and he realized it. A few days later, a friend of the brother from a neighboring building came to visit. Natasha told him about her brother’s recent actions. The friend was extremely shocked. He said that for several weeks, the brother had come to his house every day to practice crawling from balcony to balcony, but on the first floor in an apartment with a layout identical to the one where Natasha’s family lived. After this incident, the brother’s friend stopped interacting with him.

One day, the brother, supposedly “as a joke,” compressed Natasha’s carotid arteries. At that time, she still did not understand that this was effectively an attempt to kill someone, if the person was not resuscitated in time – and in some cases, resuscitation might be impossible. She lost consciousness. Her sister began shaking her, and the brother also became frightened, but he would not allow her sister to call an ambulance. After about 10—15 minutes (time seemed to pass very slowly, and to her sister it felt like much longer), Natasha opened her eyes. She said that she had gone somewhere else, and that it felt so good, so light. She said she could hear her sister screaming and calling her, but she did not want to leave the place where she was. Then, some beings appeared – perhaps Angels – and told her that she had died, but that it was not yet her time to leave this life. Therefore, she urgently needed to be returned. Natasha thought about how her sister would be left without her, that she might never see her again, and that they would be separated forever. And then she came back to consciousness. What the brother intended by conducting this “experiment” is unclear. Perhaps he was practicing for future victims using his sisters – we can only speculate. But this was already the third time Natasha’s life had been in serious danger due to her brother’s “love”: rat poison, the gallows, and the compression of her carotid arteries.

When the brother was sixteen and joined a boxing club, his sisters became punching bags for him. However, he did not stay in the club long – he was expelled after severely beating a boy who had been paired with him in the ring. Later, when he joined a karate club, all the techniques and throws were tested on his sisters. But even there, he did not stay long – he was expelled again. A person with sadistic tendencies should not be allowed to participate in such sports.

Natasha and her sister often complained to their parents that their brother was beating and tormenting them. Their father punished him several times for this, but afterwards, things became even worse. He tormented and beat them even more, taking revenge for being punished. At the same time, the brother also complained to their mother that it was Natasha and her sister who were bothering and tormenting him. The mother began to protect him. Natasha and her sister lived in fear. They had no one to complain to. And if their father tried to punish the brother, the mother would intervene and defend him. Moreover, the brother constantly accused his sisters of being born, claiming that if they did not exist, everything would be bought only for him. And when the parents spent money on their daughters, the sisters were, in his view, taking what should belong to him alone. Because of this, he would also constantly take the sisters’ personal savings, which they had been saving for school lunches.