The Figure in the Carpet

CHAPTER VIII

Nothing more vexatious had ever happened to me than to become aware before Corvick’s arrival in England that I shouldn’t be there to put him through.  I found myself abruptly called to Germany by the alarming illness of my younger brother, who, against my advice, had gone to Munich to study, at the feet indeed of a great master, the art of portraiture in oils.  The near relative who made him an allowance had threatened to withdraw it if he should, under specious pretexts, turn for superior truth to Paris—Paris being somehow, for a Cheltenham aunt, the school of evil, the abyss.  I deplored this prejudice at the time, and the deep injury of it was now visible—first in the fact that it hadn’t saved the poor boy, who was clever, frail and foolish, from congestion of the lungs, and second in the greater break with London to which the event condemned me.  I’m afraid that what was uppermost in my mind during several anxious weeks was the sense that if we had only been in Paris I might have run over to see Corvick.  This was actually out of the question from every point of view: my brother, whose recovery gave us both plenty to do, was ill for three months, during which I never left him and at the end of which we had to face the absolute prohibition of a return to England.  The consideration of climate imposed itself, and he was in no state to meet it alone.  I took him to Meran and there spent the summer with him, trying to show him by example how to get back to work and nursing a rage of another sort that I tried not to show him.

The whole business proved the first of a series of phenomena so strangely interlaced that, taken together—which was how I had to take them—they form as good an illustration as I can recall of the manner in which, for the good of his soul doubtless, fate sometimes deals with a man’s avidity.  These incidents certainly had larger bearings than the comparatively meagre consequence we are here concerned with—though I feel that consequence also a thing to speak of with some respect.  It’s mainly in such a light, I confess, at any rate, that the ugly fruit of my exile is at this hour present to me.  Even at first indeed the spirit in which my avidity, as I have called it, made me regard that term owed no element of ease to the fact that before coming back from Rapallo George Corvick addressed me in a way I objected to.  His letter had none of the sedative action I must to-day profess myself sure he had wished to give it, and the march of occurrences was not so ordered as to make up for what it lacked.  He had begun on the spot, for one of the quarterlies, a great last word on Vereker’s writings, and this exhaustive study, the only one that would have counted, have existed, was to turn on the new light, to utter—oh, so quietly!—the unimagined truth.  It was in other words to trace the figure in the carpet through every convolution, to reproduce it in every tint.  The result, according to my friend, would be the greatest literary portrait ever painted, and what he asked of me was just to be so good as not to trouble him with questions till he should hang up his masterpiece before me.  He did me the honour to declare that, putting aside the great sitter himself, all aloft in his indifference, I was individually the connoisseur he was most working for.  I was therefore to be a good boy and not try to peep under the curtain before the show was ready: I should enjoy it all the more if I sat very still.

I did my best to sit very still, but I couldn’t help giving a jump on seeing in The Times, after I had been a week or two in Munich and before, as I knew, Corvick had reached London, the announcement of the sudden death of poor Mrs. Erme.  I instantly, by letter, appealed to Gwendolen for particulars, and she wrote me that her mother had yielded to long-threatened failure of the heart.  She didn’t say, but I took the liberty of reading into her words, that from the point of view of her marriage and also of her eagerness, which was quite a match for mine, this was a solution more prompt than could have been expected and more radical than waiting for the old lady to swallow the dose.  I candidly admit indeed that at the time—for I heard from her repeatedly—I read some singular things into Gwendolen’s words and some still more extraordinary ones into her silences.  Pen in hand, this way, I live the time over, and it brings back the oddest sense of my having been, both for months and in spite of myself, a kind of coerced spectator.  All my life had taken refuge in my eyes, which the procession of events appeared to have committed itself to keep astare.  There were days when I thought of writing to Hugh Vereker and simply throwing myself on his charity.  But I felt more deeply that I hadn’t fallen quite so low—besides which, quite properly, he would send me about my business.  Mrs. Erme’s death brought Corvick straight home, and within the month he was united “very quietly”—as quietly, I seemed to make out, as he meant in his article to bring out his trouvaille—to the young lady he had loved and quitted.  I use this last term, I may parenthetically say, because I subsequently grew sure that at the time he went to India, at the time of his great news from Bombay, there had been no positive pledge between them whatever.  There had been none at the moment she was affirming to me the very opposite.  On the other hand he had certainly become engaged the day he returned.  The happy pair went down to Torquay for their honeymoon, and there, in a reckless hour, it occurred to poor Corvick to take his young bride a drive.  He had no command of that business: this had been brought home to me of old in a little tour we had once made together in a dogcart.  In a dogcart he perched his companion for a rattle over Devonshire hills, on one of the likeliest of which he brought his horse, who, it was true, had bolted, down with such violence that the occupants of the cart were hurled forward and that he fell horribly on his head.  He was killed on the spot; Gwendolen escaped unhurt.

I pass rapidly over the question of this unmitigated tragedy, of what the loss of my best friend meant for me, and I complete my little history of my patience and my pain by the frank statement of my having, in a postscript to my very first letter to her after the receipt of the hideous news, asked Mrs. Corvick whether her husband mightn’t at least have finished the great article on Vereker.  Her answer was as prompt as my question: the article, which had been barely begun, was a mere heartbreaking scrap.  She explained that our friend, abroad, had just settled down to it when interrupted by her mother’s death, and that then, on his return, he had been kept from work by the engrossments into which that calamity was to plunge them.  The opening pages were all that existed; they were striking, they were promising, but they didn’t unveil the idol.  That great intellectual feat was obviously to have formed his climax.  She said nothing more, nothing to enlighten me as to the state of her own knowledge—the knowledge for the acquisition of which I had fancied her prodigiously acting.  This was above all what I wanted to know: had she seen the idol unveiled?  Had there been a private ceremony for a palpitating audience of one?  For what else but that ceremony had the nuptials taken place?  I didn’t like as yet to press her, though when I thought of what had passed between us on the subject in Corvick’s absence her reticence surprised me.  It was therefore not till much later, from Meran, that I risked another appeal, risked it in some trepidation, for she continued to tell me nothing.  “Did you hear in those few days of your blighted bliss,” I wrote, “what we desired so to hear?”  I said, “we,” as a little hint and she showed me she could take a little hint; “I heard everything,” she replied, “and I mean to keep it to myself!”

CHAPTER IX

It was impossible not to be moved with the strongest sympathy for her, and on my return to England I showed her every kindness in my power.  Her mother’s death had made her means sufficient, and she had gone to live in a more convenient quarter.  But her loss had been great and her visitation cruel; it never would have occurred to me moreover to suppose she could come to feel the possession of a technical tip, of a piece of literary experience, a counterpoise to her grief.  Strange to say, none the less, I couldn’t help believing after I had seen her a few times that I caught a glimpse of some such oddity.  I hasten to add that there had been other things I couldn’t help believing, or at least imagining; and as I never felt I was really clear about these, so, as to the point I here touch on, I give her memory the benefit of the doubt.  Stricken and solitary, highly accomplished and now, in her deep mourning, her maturer grace and her uncomplaining sorrow, incontestably handsome, she presented herself as leading a life of singular dignity and beauty.  I had at first found a way to persuade myself that I should soon get the better of the reserve formulated, the week after the catastrophe in her reply to an appeal as to which I was not unconscious that it might strike her as mistimed.  Certainly that reserve was something of a shock to me—certainly it puzzled me the more I thought of it and even though I tried to explain it (with moments of success) by an imputation of exalted sentiments, of superstitious scruples, of a refinement of loyalty.  Certainly it added at the same time hugely to the price of Vereker’s secret, precious as this mystery already appeared.  I may as well confess abjectly that Mrs. Corvick’s unexpected attitude was the final tap on the nail that was to fix fast my luckless idea, convert it into the obsession of which I’m for ever conscious.

But this only helped me the more to be artful, to be adroit, to allow time to elapse before renewing my suit.  There were plenty of speculations for the interval, and one of them was deeply absorbing.  Corvick had kept his information from his young friend till after the removal of the last barrier to their intimacy—then only had he let the cat out of the bag.  Was it Gwendolen’s idea, taking a hint from him, to liberate this animal only on the basis of the renewal of such a relation?  Was the figure in the carpet traceable or describable only for husbands and wives—for lovers supremely united?  It came back to me in a mystifying manner that in Kensington Square, when I mentioned that Corvick would have told the girl he loved, some word had dropped from Vereker that gave colour to this possibility.  There might be little in it, but there was enough to make me wonder if I should have to marry Mrs. Corvick to get what I wanted.  Was I prepared to offer her this price for the blessing of her knowledge?  Ah that way madness lay!—so I at least said to myself in bewildered hours.  I could see meanwhile the torch she refused to pass on flame away in her chamber of memory—pour through her eyes a light that shone in her lonely house.  At the end of six months I was fully sure of what this warm presence made up to her for.  We had talked again and again of the man who had brought us together—of his talent, his character, his personal charm, his certain career, his dreadful doom, and even of his clear purpose in that great study which was to have been a supreme literary portrait, a kind of critical Vandyke or Velasquez.  She had conveyed to me in abundance that she was tongue-tied by her perversity, by her piety, that she would never break the silence it had not been given to the “right person,” as she said, to break.  The hour however finally arrived.  One evening when I had been sitting with her longer than usual I laid my hand firmly on her arm.  “Now at last what is it?”

She had been expecting me and was ready.  She gave a long slow soundless headshake, merciful only in being inarticulate.  This mercy didn’t prevent its hurling at me the largest finest coldest “Never!” I had yet, in the course of a life that had known denials, had to take full in the face.  I took it and was aware that with the hard blow the tears had come into my eyes.  So for a while we sat and looked at each other; after which I slowly rose, I was wondering if some day she would accept me; but this was not what I brought out.  I said as I smoothed down my hat: “I know what to think then.  It’s nothing!”

A remote disdainful pity for me gathered in her dim smile; then she spoke in a voice that I hear at this hour: “It’s my life!”  As I stood at the door she added: “You’ve insulted him!”

“Do you mean Vereker?”

“I mean the Dead!”

I recognised when I reached the street the justice of her charge.  Yes, it was her life—I recognised that too; but her life none the less made room with the lapse of time for another interest.  A year and a half after Corvick’s death she published in a single volume her second novel, “Overmastered,” which I pounced on in the hope of finding in it some tell-tale echo or some peeping face.  All I found was a much better book than her younger performance, showing I thought the better company she had kept.  As a tissue tolerably intricate it was a carpet with a figure of its own; but the figure was not the figure I was looking for.  On sending a review of it to The Middle I was surprised to learn from the office that a notice was already in type.  When the paper came out I had no hesitation in attributing this article, which I thought rather vulgarly overdone, to Drayton Deane, who in the old days had been something of a friend of Corvick’s, yet had only within a few weeks made the acquaintance of his widow.  I had had an early copy of the book, but Deane had evidently had an earlier.  He lacked all the same the light hand with which Corvick had gilded the gingerbread—he laid on the tinsel in splotches.

CHAPTER X

Six months later appeared “The Right of Way,” the last chance, though we didn’t know it, that we were to have to redeem ourselves.  Written wholly during Vereker’s sojourn abroad, the book had been heralded, in a hundred paragraphs, by the usual ineptitudes.  I carried it, as early a copy as any, I this time flattered myself, straightway to Mrs. Corvick.  This was the only use I had for it; I left the inevitable tribute of The Middle to some more ingenious mind and some less irritated temper.  “But I already have it,” Gwendolen said.  “Drayton Deane was so good as to bring it to me yesterday, and I’ve just finished it.”

“Yesterday?  How did he get it so soon?”

“He gets everything so soon!  He’s to review it in The Middle.”

“He—Drayton Deane—review Vereker?”  I couldn’t believe my ears.

“’Why not?  One fine ignorance is as good as another.”

I winced but I presently said: “You ought to review him yourself!”

“I don’t ‘review,’” she laughed.  “I’m reviewed!”

Just then the door was thrown open.  “Ah yes, here’s your reviewer!”  Drayton Deane was there with his long legs and his tall forehead: he had come to see what she thought of “The Right of Way,” and to bring news that was singularly relevant.  The evening papers were just out with a telegram on the author of that work, who, in Rome, had been ill for some days with an attack of malarial fever.  It had at first not been thought grave, but had taken, in consequence of complications, a turn that might give rise to anxiety.  Anxiety had indeed at the latest hour begun to be felt.

I was struck in the presence of these tidings with the fundamental detachment that Mrs. Corvick’s overt concern quite failed to hide: it gave me the measure of her consummate independence.  That independence rested on her knowledge, the knowledge which nothing now could destroy and which nothing could make different.  The figure in the carpet might take on another twist or two, but the sentence had virtually been written.  The writer might go down to his grave: she was the person in the world to whom—as if she had been his favoured heir—his continued existence was least of a need.  This reminded me how I had observed at a particular moment—after Corvick’s death—the drop of her desire to see him face to face.  She had got what she wanted without that.  I had been sure that if she hadn’t got it she wouldn’t have been restrained from the endeavour to sound him personally by those superior reflexions, more conceivable on a man’s part than on a woman’s, which in my case had served an a deterrent.  It wasn’t however, I hasten to add, that my case, in spite of this invidious comparison, wasn’t ambiguous enough.  At the thought that Vereker was perhaps at that moment dying there rolled over me a wave of anguish—a poignant sense of how inconsistently I still depended on him.  A delicacy that it was my one compensation to suffer to rule me had left the Alps and the Apennines between us, but the sense of the waning occasion suggested that I might in my despair at last have gone to him.  Of course I should really have done nothing of the sort.  I remained five minutes, while my companions talked of the new book, and when Drayton Deane appealed to me for my opinion of it I made answer, getting up, that I detested Hugh Vereker and simply couldn’t read him.  I departed with the moral certainty that as the door closed behind me Deane would brand me for awfully superficial.  His hostess wouldn’t contradict that at least.

I continue to trace with a briefer touch our intensely odd successions.  Three weeks after this came Vereker’s death, and before the year was out the death of his wife.  That poor lady I had never seen, but I had had a futile theory that, should she survive him long enough to be decorously accessible, I might approach her with the feeble flicker of my plea.  Did she know and if she knew would she speak?  It was much to be presumed that for more reasons than one she would have nothing to say; but when she passed out of all reach I felt renannouncement indeed my appointed lot.  I was shut up in my obsession for ever—my gaolers had gone off with the key.  I find myself quite as vague as a captive in a dungeon about the tinge that further elapsed before Mrs. Corvick became the wife of Drayton Deane.  I had foreseen, through my bars, this end of the business, though there was no indecent haste and our friendship had fallen rather off.  They were both so “awfully intellectual” that it struck people as a suitable match, but I had measured better than any one the wealth of understanding the bride would contribute to the union.  Never, for a marriage in literary circles—so the newspapers described the alliance—had a lady been so bravely dowered.  I began with due promptness to look for the fruit of the affair—that fruit, I mean, of which the premonitory symptoms would be peculiarly visible in the husband.  Taking for granted the splendour of the other party’s nuptial gift, I expected to see him make a show commensurate with his increase of means.  I knew what his means had been—his article on “The Right of Way” had distinctly given one the figure.  As he was now exactly in the position in which still more exactly I was not I watched from month to month, in the likely periodicals, for the heavy message poor Corvick had been unable to deliver and the responsibility of which would have fallen on his successor.  The widow and wife would have broken by the rekindled hearth the silence that only a widow and wife might break, and Deane would be as aflame with the knowledge as Corvick in his own hour, as Gwendolen in hers, had been.  Well, he was aflame doubtless, but the fire was apparently not to become a public blaze.  I scanned the periodicals in vain: Drayton Deane filled them with exuberant pages, but he withheld the page I most feverishly sought.  He wrote on a thousand subjects, but never on the subject of Vereker.  His special line was to tell truths that other people either “funked,” as he said, or overlooked, but he never told the only truth that seemed to me in these days to signify.  I met the couple in those literary circles referred to in the papers: I have sufficiently intimated that it was only in such circles we were all constructed to revolve.  Gwendolen was more than ever committed to them by the publication of her third novel, and I myself definitely classed by holding the opinion that this work was inferior to its immediate predecessor.  Was it worse because she had been keeping worse company?  If her secret was, as she had told me, her life—a fact discernible in her increasing bloom, an air of conscious privilege that, cleverly corrected by pretty charities, gave distinction to her appearance—it had yet not a direct influence on her work.  That only made one—everything only made one—yearn the more for it; only rounded it off with a mystery finer and subtler.