Dr. Sevier
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“How shall I do that, Richling?”
“Tell my story.”
“But I don’t know it all, Richling.”
“I’ll tell you all that’s behind. You know I’m a native of Kentucky. My name is not Richling. I belong to one of the proudest, most distinguished families in that State or in all the land. Until I married I never knew an ungratified wish. I think my bringing-up, not to be wicked, was as bad as could be. It was based upon the idea that I was always to be master, and never servant. I was to go through life with soft hands. I was educated to know, but not to do. When I left school my parents let me travel. They would have let me do anything except work. In the West – in Milwaukee – I met Mary. It was by mere chance. She was poor, but cultivated and refined; trained – you know – for knowing, not doing. I loved her and courted her, and she encouraged my suit, under the idea, you know, again,” – he smiled faintly and sadly, – “that it was nobody’s business but ours. I offered my hand and was accepted. But, when I came to announce our engagement to my family, they warned me that if I married her they would disinherit and disown me.”
“What was their reason, Richling?”
“Nothing.”
“But, Richling, they had a reason of some sort.”
“Nothing in the world but that Mary was a Northern girl. Simple sectional prejudice. I didn’t tell Mary. I didn’t think they would do it; but I knew Mary would refuse to put me to the risk. We married, and they carried out their threat.”
The Doctor uttered a low exclamation, and both were silent.
“Doctor,” began the sick man once more.
“Yes, Richling.”
“I suppose you never looked into the case of a man who needed help, but you were sure to find that some one thing was the key to all his troubles; did you?”
The Doctor was silent again.
“I’ll give you the key to mine, Doctor: I took up the gage thrown down by my family as though it were thrown down by society at large. I said I would match pride with pride. I said I would go among strangers, take a new name, and make it as honorable as the old. I saw Mary didn’t think it wise; but she believed whatever I did was best, and” – he smiled and whispered – “I thought so too. I suppose my troubles have more than one key; but that’s the outside one. Let me rest a little.
“Doctor, I die nameless. I had a name, a good name, and only too proud a one. It’s mine still. I’ve never tarnished it – not even in prison. I will not stain it now by disclosing it. I carry it with me to God’s throne.”
The whisperer ceased, exhausted. The Doctor rested an elbow on a knee and laid his face in his hand. Presently Richling moved, and he raised a look of sad inquiry.
“Bury me here in New Orleans, Doctor, will you?”
“Why, Richling?”
“Well – this has been – my – battle-ground. I’d like to be buried on the field, – like the other soldiers. Not that I’ve been a good one; but – I want to lie where you can point to me as you tell my story. If it could be so, I should like to lie in sight – of that old prison.”
The Doctor brushed his eyes with his handkerchief and wiped his brow.
“Doctor,” said the invalid again, “will you read me just four verses in the Bible?”
“Why, yes, my boy, as many as you wish to hear.”
“No, only four.” His free hand moved for the book that lay on the bed, and presently the Doctor read: —
“‘My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
“‘Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
“‘But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
“‘If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.’”
“There,” whispered the sick man, and rested with a peaceful look in all his face. “It – doesn’t mean wisdom in general, Doctor, – such as Solomon asked for.”
“Doesn’t it?” said the other, meekly.
“No. It means the wisdom necessary to let – patience – have her perf – I was a long time – getting any where near that.
“Doctor – do you remember how fond – Mary was of singing – all kinds of – little old songs?”
“Of course I do, my dear boy.”
“Did you ever sing – Doctor?”
“O my dear fellow! I never did really sing, and I haven’t uttered a note since – for twenty years.”
“Can’t you sing – ever so softly – just a verse – of – ‘I’m a Pilgrim’?”
“I – I – it’s impossible, Richling, old fellow. I don’t know either the words or the tune. I never sing.” He smiled at himself through his tears.
“Well, all right,” whispered Richling. He lay with closed eyes for a moment, and then, as he opened them, breathed faintly through his parted lips the words, spoken, not sung, while his hand feebly beat the imagined cadence: —
“‘The sun shines bright in my old Kentucky home;‘Tis summer, the darkies are gay;The corn-tops are ripe, and the meadows are in bloom,And the birds make music all the day.’”The Doctor hid his face in his hands, and all was still.
By and by there came a whisper again. The Doctor raised his head.
“Doctor, there’s one thing” —
“Yes, I know there is, Richling.”
“Doctor, – I’ve been a poor stick of a husband.”
“I never knew a good one, Richling.”
“Doctor, you’ll be a friend to Mary?”
The Doctor nodded; his eyes were full.
The sick man drew from his breast a small ambrotype, pressed it to his lips, and poised it in his trembling fingers. It was the likeness of the little Alice. He turned his eyes to his friend.
“I didn’t need Mary’s. But this is all I’ve ever seen of my little girl. To-morrow, at daybreak, – it will be just at daybreak, – when you see that I’ve passed, I want you to lay this here on my breast. Then fold my hands upon it” —
His speech was arrested. He seemed to hearken an instant.
“Doctor,” he said, with excitement in his eye and sudden strength of voice, “what is that I hear?”
“I don’t know,” replied his friend; “one of the servants probably down in the hall.” But he, too, seemed to have been startled. He lifted his head. There was a sound of some one coming up the stairs in haste.
“Doctor.” The Doctor was rising from his chair.
“Lie still, Richling.”
But the sick man suddenly sat erect.
“Doctor – it’s – O Doctor, I” —
The door flew open; there was a low outcry from the threshold, a moan of joy from the sick man, a throwing wide of arms, and a rush to the bedside, and John and Mary Richling – and the little Alice, too —
Come, Doctor Sevier; come out and close the door.
“Strangest thing on earth!” I once heard a physician say, – “the mysterious power that the dying so often have to fix the very hour of their approaching end!” It was so in John Richling’s case. It was as he said. Had Mary and Alice not come when they did, they would have been too late. He “tarried but a night;” and at the dawn Mary uttered the bitter cry of the widow, and Doctor Sevier closed the eyes of the one who had committed no fault, – against this world, at least, – save that he had been by nature a pilgrim and a stranger in it.
CHAPTER LIX.
AFTERGLOW
Mary, with Alice holding one hand, flowers in the other, was walking one day down the central avenue of the old Girod Cemetery, breaking the silence of the place only by the soft grinding of her footsteps on the shell-walk, and was just entering a transverse alley, when she stopped.
Just at hand a large, broad woman, very plainly dressed, was drawing back a single step from the front of a tomb, and dropping her hands from a coarse vase of flowers that she had that moment placed on the narrow stone shelf under the tablet. The blossoms touched, without hiding, the newly cut name. She had hung a little plaster crucifix against it from above. She must have heard the footfall so near by, and marked its stoppage; but, with the oblivion common to the practisers of her religion, she took no outward notice. She crossed herself, sank upon her knees, and with her eyes upon the shrine she had made remained thus. The tears ran down Mary’s face. It was Madame Zénobie. They went and lived together.
The name of the street where their house stood has slipped me, as has that of the clean, unfrequented, round-stoned way up which one looked from the small cottage’s veranda, and which, running down to their old arched gate, came there to an end, as if that were a pretty place to stop at in the shade until evening. Grass grows now, as it did then, between the round stones; and in the towering sycamores of the reddened brick sidewalk the long, quavering note of the cicada parts the wide summer noonday silence. The stillness yields to little else, save now and then the tinkle of a mule-bell, where in the distance the softly rumbling street-car invites one to the centre of the town’s activities, or the voice of some fowl that, having laid an egg, is asserting her right to the credit of it. Some forty feet back, within a mossy brick wall that stands waist-high, surmounted by a white, open fence, the green wooden balls on top of whose posts are full eight feet above the sidewalk, the cottage stands high up among a sweet confusion of pale purple and pink crape myrtles, oleanders white and red, and the bristling leaves and plumes of white bells of the Spanish bayonet, all in the shade of lofty magnolias, and one great pecan.
“And this is little Alice,” said Doctor Sevier with gentle gravity, as, on his first visit to the place, he shook hands with Mary at the top of the veranda stairs, and laid his fingers upon the child’s forehead. He smiled into her uplifted face as her eyes examined his, and stroked the little crown as she turned her glance silently upon her mother, as if to inquire if this were a trustworthy person. Mary led the way to chairs at the veranda’s end where the south breeze fanned them, and Alice retreated to her mother’s side until her silent question should be settled.
It was still May. They spoke the praises of the day whose sun was just setting. And Mary commended the house, the convenience of its construction, its salubrity; and also, and especially, the excellence and goodness of Madame Zénobie. What a complete and satisfactory arrangement! Was it not? Did not the Doctor think so?
But the Doctor’s affirmative responses were unfrequent, and quite without enthusiasm; and Mary’s face, wearing more cheer than was felt within, betrayed, moreover, the feeling of one who, having done the best she knew, falls short of commendation.
She was once more in deep black. Her face was pale, and some of its lines had yielded up a part of their excellence. The outward curves of the rose had given place to the inward curves of the lily – nay, hardly all that; for as she had never had the full red queenliness of the one, neither had she now the severe sanctitude of the other; that soft glow of inquiry, at once so blithe and so self-contained, so modest and so courageous, humble, yet free, still played about her saddened eyes and in her tones. Through the glistening sadness of those eyes smiled resignation; and although the Doctor plainly read care about them and about the mouth, it was a care that was forbearing to feed upon itself, or to take its seat on her brow. The brow was the old one; that is, the young. The joy of life’s morning was gone from it forever; but a chastened hope was there, and one could see peace hovering just above it, as though it might in time alight. Such were the things that divided her austere friend’s attention as she sat before him, seeking, with timid smiles and interrogative argument, for this new beginning of life some heartiness of approval from him.
“Doctor,” she plucked up courage to say at last, with a geniality that scantily hid the inner distress, “you don’t seem pleased.”
“I can’t say I am, Mary. You’ve provided for things in sight; but I see no provision for unseen contingencies. They’re sure to come, you know. How are you going to meet them?”
“Well,” said Mary, with slow, smiling caution, “there’s my two thousand dollars that you’ve put at interest for me.”
“Why, no; you’ve already counted the interest on that as part of your necessary income.”
“Doctor, ‘the Lord will provide,’ will he not?”
“No.”
“Why, Doctor!” —
“No, Mary; you’ve got to provide. He’s not going to set aside the laws of nature to cover our improvidence. That would be to break faith with all creation for the sake of one or two creatures.”
“No; but still, Doctor, without breaking the laws of nature, he will provide. It’s in his word.”
“Yes, and it ought to be in his word – not in ours. It’s for him to say to us, not for us to say to him. But there’s another thing, Mary.”
“Yes, sir.”
“It’s this. But first I’ll say plainly you’ve passed through the fires of poverty, and they haven’t hurt you. You have one of those imperishable natures that fire can’t stain or warp.”
“O Doctor, how absurd!” said Mary, with bright genuineness, and a tear in either eye. She drew Alice closer.
“Well, then, I do see two ill effects,” replied the Doctor. “In the first place, as I’ve just tried to show you, you have caught a little of the recklessness of the poor.”
“I was born with it,” exclaimed Mary, with amusement.
“Maybe so,” replied her friend; “at any rate you show it.” He was silent.
“But what is the other?” asked Mary.
“Why, as to that, I may mistake; but – you seem inclined to settle down and be satisfied with poverty.”
“Having food and raiment,” said Mary, smiling with some archness, “to be therewith content.”
“Yes, but” – the physician shook his head – “that doesn’t mean to be satisfied. It’s one thing to be content with God’s providence, and it’s another to be satisfied with poverty. There’s not one in a thousand that I’d venture to say it to. He wouldn’t understand the fine difference. But you will. I’m sure you do.”
“Yes, I do.”
“I know you do. You know poverty has its temptations, and warping influences, and debasing effects, just as truly as riches have. See how it narrows our usefulness. Not always, it is true. Sometimes our best usefulness keeps us poor. That’s poverty with a good excuse. But that’s not poverty satisfying, Mary” —
“No, of course not,” said Mary, exhibiting a degree of distress that the Doctor somehow overlooked.
“It’s merely,” said he, half-extending his open palm, – “it’s merely poverty accepted, as a good soldier accepts the dust and smut that are a necessary part of the battle. Now, here’s this little girl.” – As his open white hand pointed toward Alice she shrank back; but the Doctor seemed blind this afternoon and drove on. – “In a few years – it will not seem like any time at all – she’ll be half grown up; she’ll have wants that ought to be supplied.”
“Oh! don’t,” exclaimed Mary, and burst into a flood of tears; and the Doctor, while she hid them from her child, sat silently loathing his own stupidity.
“Please, don’t mind it,” said Mary, stanching the flow. “You were not so badly mistaken. I wasn’t satisfied, but I was about to surrender.” She smiled at herself and her warlike figure of speech.
He looked away, passed his hand across his forehead and must have muttered audibly his self-reproach: for Mary looked up again with a faint gleam of the old radiance in her face, saying: —
“I’m glad you didn’t let me do it. I’ll not do it. I’ll take up the struggle again. Indeed, I had already thought of one thing I could do, but I – I – in fact, Doctor, I thought you might not like it.”
“What was it?”
“It was teaching in the public schools. They’re in the hands of the military government, I am told. Are they not?”
“Yes.”
“Still,” said Mary, speaking rapidly, “I say I’ll keep up the” —
But the Doctor lifted his hand.
“No, no. There’s to be no more struggle.”
“No?” Mary tried to look pleasantly incredulous.
“No; and you’re not going to be put upon anybody’s bounty, either. No. What I was going to say about this little girl here was this, – her name is Alice, is it?”
“Yes.”
The mother dropped an arm around the child, and both she and Alice looked timidly at the questioner.
“Well, by that name, Mary, I claim the care of her.”
The color mounted to Mary’s brows, but the Doctor raised a finger.
“I mean, of course, Mary, only in so far as such care can go without molesting your perfect motherhood, and all its offices and pleasures.”
Her eyes filled again, and her lips parted; but the Doctor was not going to let her reply.
“Don’t try to debate it, Mary. You must see you have no case. Nobody’s going to take her from you, nor do any other of the foolish things, I hope, that are so often done in such cases. But you’ve called her Alice, and Alice she must be. I don’t propose to take care of her for you” —
“Oh, no; of course not,” interjected Mary.
“No,” said the Doctor; “you’ll take care of her for me. I intended it from the first. And that brings up another point. You mustn’t teach school. No. I have something else – something better – to suggest. Mary, you and John have been a kind of blessing to me” —
She would have interrupted with expressions of astonishment and dissent, but he would not hear them.
“I think I ought to know best about that,” he said. “Your husband taught me a great deal, I think. I want to put some of it into practice. We had a – an understanding, you might say – one day toward the – end – that I should do for him some of the things he had so longed and hoped to do – for the poor and the unfortunate.”
“I know,” said Mary, the tears dropping down her face.
“He told you?” asked the Doctor.
She nodded.
“Well,” resumed the Doctor, “those may not be his words precisely, but it’s what they meant to me. And I said I’d do it. But I shall need assistance. I’m a medical practitioner. I attend the sick. But I see a great deal of other sorts of sufferers; and I can’t stop for them.”
“Certainly not,” said Mary, softly.
“No,” said he; “I can’t make the inquiries and investigations about them and study them, and all that kind of thing, as one should if one’s help is going to be help. I can’t turn aside for all that. A man must have one direction, you know. But you could look after those things” —
“I?”
“Certainly. You could do it just as I – just as John – would wish to see it done. You’re just the kind of person to do it right.”
“O Doctor, don’t say so! I’m not fitted for it at all.”
“I’m sure you are, Mary. You’re fitted by character and outward disposition, and by experience. You’re full of cheer” —
She tearfully shook her head. But he insisted.
“You will be – for his sake, as you once said to me. Don’t you remember?”
She remembered. She recalled all he wished her to: the prayer she had made that, whenever death should part her husband and her, he might not be the one left behind. Yes, she remembered; and the Doctor spoke again: —
“Now, I invite you to make this your principal business. I’ll pay you for it, regularly and well, what I think it’s worth; and it’s worth no trifle. There’s not one in a thousand that I’d trust to do it, woman or man; but I know you will do it all, and do it well, without any nonsense. And if you want to look at it so, Mary, you can just consider that it’s John doing it, all the time; for, in fact, that’s just what it is. It beats sewing, Mary, or teaching school, or making preserves, I think.”
“Yes,” said Mary, looking down on Alice, and stroking her head.
“You can stay right here where you are, with Madame Zénobie, as you had planned; but you’ll give yourself to this better work. I’ll give you a carte blanche. Only one mistake I charge you not to make; don’t go and come from day to day on the assumption that only the poor are poor, and need counsel and attention.”
“I know that would be a mistake,” said Mary.
“But I mean more than that,” continued the Doctor. “You must keep a hold on the rich and comfortable and happy. You want to be a medium between the two, identified with both as completely as possible. It’s a hard task, Mary. It will take all your cunning.”
“And more, too,” replied she, half-musing.
“You know,” said the Doctor, “I’m not to appear in the matter, of course; I’m not to be mentioned: that must be one of the conditions.”
Mary smiled at him through her welling eyes.
“I’m not fit to do it,” she said, folding the wet spots of her handkerchief under. “But still, I’d rather not refuse. If I might try it, I’d like to do so. If I could do it well, it would be a finer monument – to him” —
“Than brass or marble,” said Dr. Sevier. “Yes, more to his liking.”
“Well,” said Mary again, “if you think I can do it I’ll try it.”
“Very well. There’s one place you can go to, to begin with, to-morrow morning, if you choose. I’ll give you the number. It’s just across here in Casa Calvo street.”
“Narcisse’s aunt?” asked Mary, with a soft gleam of amusement.
“Yes. Have you been there already?”
She had; but she only said: —
“There’s one thing that I’m afraid will go against me, Doctor, almost everywhere.” She lifted a timid look.
The Doctor looked at her inquiringly, and in his private thought said that it was certainly not her face or voice.
“Ah!” he said, as he suddenly recollected. “Yes; I had forgotten. You mean your being a Union woman.”
“Yes. It seems to me they’ll be sure to find it out. Don’t you think it will interfere?”
The Doctor mused.
“I forgot that,” he repeated and mused again. “You can’t blame us, Mary; we’re at white heat” —
“Indeed I don’t!” said Mary, with eager earnestness.
He reflected yet again.
“But – I don’t know, either. It may be not as great a drawback as you think. Here’s Madame Zénobie, for instance” —
Madame Zénobie was just coming up the front steps from the garden, pulling herself up upon the veranda wearily by the balustrade. She came forward, and, with graceful acknowledgment, accepted the physician’s outstretched hand and courtesied.
“Here’s Madame Zénobie, I say; you seem to get along with her.”
Mary smiled again, looked up at the standing quadroon, and replied in a low voice: —
“Madame Zénobie is for the Union herself.”
“Ah! no-o-o!” exclaimed the good woman, with an alarmed face. She lifted her shoulders and extended what Narcisse would have called the han’ of rep-u-diation; then turned away her face, lifted up her underlip with disrelish, and asked the surrounding atmosphere, – “What I got to do wid Union? Nuttin’ do wid Union – nuttin’ do wid Confédéracie!” She moved away, addressing the garden and the house by turns. “Ah! no!” She went in by the front door, talking Creole French, until she was beyond hearing.
Dr. Sevier reached out toward the child at Mary’s knee. Here was one who was neither for nor against, nor yet a fear-constrained neutral. Mary pushed her persuasively toward the Doctor, and Alice let herself be lifted to his lap.
“I used to be for it myself,” he said, little dreaming he would one day be for it again. As the child sank back into his arm, he noticed a miniature of her father hanging from her neck. He took it into his fingers, and all were silent while he looked long upon the face.
By and by he asked Mary for an account of her wanderings. She gave it. Many of the experiences, that had been hard and dangerous enough when she was passing through them, were full of drollery when they came to be told, and there was much quiet amusement over them. The sunlight faded out, the cicadas hushed their long-drawn, ear-splitting strains, and the moon had begun to shine in the shadowy garden when Dr. Sevier at length let Alice down and rose to take his lonely homeward way, leaving Mary to Alice’s prattle, and, when that was hushed in slumber, to gentle tears and whispered thanksgivings above the little head.
CHAPTER LX.
“YET SHALL HE LIVE.”
We need not follow Mary through her ministrations. Her office was no sinecure. It took not only much labor, but, as the Doctor had expected, it took all her cunning. True, nature and experience had equipped her for such work; but for all that there was an art to be learned, and time and again there were cases of mental and moral decrepitude or deformity that baffled all her skill until her skill grew up to them, which in some cases it never did. The greatest tax of all was to seem, and to be, unprofessional; to avoid regarding her work in quantity, and to be simply, merely, in every case, a personal friend; not to become known as a benevolent itinerary, but only a kind and thoughtful neighbor. Blessed word! not benefactor – neighbor!