The Firefighter's Refrain

He’s a man who wants it all...if only he could have it

Dreams of stardom took musician and firefighter Sam Marshall far from his Colorado roots. Starting fresh in Nashville hasn’t been easy, especially after an injury on the job, but he’s working his way to the Grand Ole Opry one open mike at a time, teaching at the fire station to make ends meet. Yet Sam’s intentions are shaken when he meets the lovely owner of a local café. Suddenly, Sam’s dreams are filled with her. Too bad that as the daughter of country-music wannabes, Finn Leary’s been there, done that. She’ll never choose a musician. So how can Sam possibly get the girl and keep the guitar?

With his fingertip, Sam traced the contour of her jaw.

“You can do anything, remember?”

Finn held her breath; the last time he’d looked at her this way, he had kissed her. Or had she kissed him? Not that it made any difference. Standing in the circle of his strong arms, she’d felt vulnerable and safe and more womanly than she ever had before...all at the same time.

And because it scared her, she’d tried putting some distance between them to figure out if she could trust him. Until this moment, looking into eyes lit with kindness and caring—for her—she hadn’t considered the possibility that he might be battling the same fears.

“Thanks, Sam,” she said, taking a half step closer.

“For what?”

Finn shrugged, wrapped her arms around him and rested her head on his chest, hoping the gesture would be answer enough. She wasn’t ready to say the words out loud.

At least, not yet.

Dear Reader,

Close your eyes for a moment and picture your first crush. Call to mind the way it felt, knowing you were falling in love with him—and had no idea how to admit it. If you’re like me, you were terrified. What if you put your heart out there and he rejected it! Far better to keep your feelings hidden.

Then one night, perhaps he tenderly tucked your hair behind your ears, or confessed that he couldn’t talk to anyone the way he could talk to you, or kissed you as you’d never been kissed before, and you thought, This, this is the time! But when he looked surprised and uncomfortable instead of happy, you faced a whole new challenge: hiding your disappointment and heartache long enough to get home, where you could cry yourself to sleep.

Remarkably, your second crush came along, and yet again, your heart drummed with the sweet beats of new love. But this time, you were older and wiser: Why risk a repeat performance of that agonizing moment by blurting out “I love you”?

That’s pretty much the dilemma faced by the main characters in The Firefighter’s Refrain.

Finn Leary has learned the hard way that living by the saying “better to love and lose than never love at all” is dangerous and reckless. Sam Marshall, the product of a big, loving family, believes the exact opposite, and his impatience with her guarded behavior threatens to end them before they can begin.

Thankfully, we needn’t remain prisoners of the past. My wish for you, dear reader, is that you’ll open every dark corner of your heart to the possibility of love.

Hugs from me to you,

Loree

LOREE LOUGH once sang for her supper. Traveling by way of bus and train, she entertained folks in pubs and lounges across the United States and Canada. Her favorite memories of days on the road are the hours spent singing to soldiers recovering from battle wounds in VA hospitals. Now and then she polishes up her Yamaha guitar to croon a tune or two, but mostly she writes. With over a hundred books in print (sixteen bearing the Harlequin logo), Loree’s work has earned numerous industry accolades, movie options, and four- and five-star reviews, but what she treasures most are her Readers’ Choice Awards.

Loree and her real-life hero split their time between Baltimore’s suburbs and a cabin in the Allegheny Mountains, where she continues to perfect her “identify the critter tracks” skills. A writer who believes in giving back, Loree donates a generous portion of her annual income to charity (see the Giving Back page of her website, loreelough.com, for details). She loves hearing from her readers and answers every letter personally. You can connect with her on Facebook, Twitter and Pinterest.

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This story is dedicated to firefighters everywhere, and to the committed instructors who prepare them for the dangers they’ll face every day of their lives.

It’s also dedicated to songwriters, singers and musicians whose tenacity makes the world a better place with every note they produce.

Last, but certainly not least, this novel is dedicated to Jesse Spencer, whose wholesome good looks and spot-on portrayal of a firefighter inspired the descriptions of Sam Marshall.

Acknowledgments

My thanks to Torry Martin, actor, author, comedian and all-around terrific guy, and Mark Ligon, singer and guitarist, who graciously consented to appear as themselves in this story.

A big thanks to all the friendly and knowledgeable people at the Nashville Chamber of Commerce. The list of individuals is too lengthy for the space allowed here, but you know who you are! Your input and guidance helped lend authenticity and realism to every street, shop and museum that makes Music City one of the world’s most sought-after tourist attractions.

My heartfelt gratitude, too, to my friends and family, for tolerating my crazy-weird schedule and putting up with countless recitations of “the exciting, fascinating stuff I learned” while writing this book.

I love you all!

Contents

COVER

BACK COVER TEXT

INTRODUCTION

Dear Reader

TITLE PAGE

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

DEDICATION

Acknowledgments

CHAPTER ONE

CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FIVE

CHAPTER SIX

CHAPTER SEVEN

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER TEN

CHAPTER ELEVEN

CHAPTER TWELVE

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

CHAPTER NINETEEN

CHAPTER TWENTY

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

CHAPTER THIRTY

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO

CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE

CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR

CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE

EXTRACT

COPYRIGHT

CHAPTER ONE

SAM WROTE HIS name on the whiteboard, wincing when the dry-erase pen squeaked across the polished surface.

He recapped the pen. “Sorry, and I hate to admit it, but that happens all the time.”

“It’s because you’re left-handed,” said the student sitting nearest the door. “Left-handers hold things...weird.”

The female cadet beside him knocked on her desk. “It’s weirdly,” she said, “not weird.”

For the moment, Sam was more interested in the left-hander than proper grammar.

“Yeah, yeah,” the student said. “I was with the ditzy blonde on Monday.”

Sam had lucked into a slot on Open Mic Night at the Bluebird Café, a lifetime dream made more fantastic when the crowd had stood to cheer the song he’d written and performed. Amid the applause and whistles, a cute woman had climbed onstage and wrapped him in a hug that belied her size...while her wide-eyed date had looked more stunned than Sam felt.

“When the lieutenant straps on a guitar, he turns into a babe magnet.” The student smirked. “My girlfriend says it’s all his fault that she clung to him like a plastic wrap.”

Laughter traveled through the room, and Sam felt the beginnings of a blush creeping into his cheeks.

The young woman piped up. “Wait. You got a standing O at the Bluebird?” She flipped a copper-red braid over her shoulder. “That’s one tough crowd, so...” She frowned slightly. “If you’re that good, why are you here?”

Much as Sam loved the department, he’d trade his badge for a guitar in a heartbeat...if he thought for a minute he could survive on a musician’s salary.

“Somebody’s got to teach you bunch of knuckleheads how to get cats out of trees.”

His students snickered.

“Fair warning—laughing at my bad jokes won’t earn you extra credit, but showing up on time might.” He dropped the pen on to the chalk ledge. “Any questions before we get started?”

“Were you injured putting out a fire?” the redhead wanted to know.

A flash of memory took him back to that night when the ceiling literally caved in on him, and he believed life as he’d known it was over.

“You know, your limp?” she continued when Sam didn’t say anything. “Is that muscle or bone damage?”

She looked a little like Sophie—the only Marshall in generations born with auburn hair and brown eyes. Sam hoped the resemblance was purely physical, because his youngest sister’s questions could drive a Tibetan monk to drink.

“What’s your name, cadet?”

“Jasmine Epps, Captain.” She sat at attention. “If I graduate, I’ll be the first woman in my family to become a firefighter.” She lifted her chin. “And there are a lot of firefighters in the Epps family.”

Anyone who’d ever walked the long hallway down at headquarters recognized the name. But it didn’t matter. For her sake and safety, Sam needed her to understand that her name would not buy preferential treatment, and that included off-track interruptions and distractions.

He straightened to his full six-foot height. “I’m here for the same reason you are,” he said, addressing the entire class. “To whip you into mental and physical shape to become firefighters. And we only have three months to get the job done. You’re all equals in here, so I’m not going to waste time worrying about the balance of male versus female pronouns.” He met Epps’s eyes. “You okay with that, recruit?”

“Yessir, Captain Marshall.” She giggled quietly. “I’m surprised that you’re so well acquainted with parts of speech. I have a degree to teach English, you know, so I’ll have something to fall back on, just in case?”

Was she testing him, to see how much he’d let her get away with?

“That, people,” he announced, pointing at her, “was the second—and last—self-deprecating comment allowed in this room. From this night forward, we operate on the assumption that at the end of this session, everyone becomes a firefighter.” Sam paused, to give the rule time to sink in. “Got it?”

Following the drone of yessirs, he picked up his clipboard and sat on the corner of his desk.

“Now, then, since we already know that Epps here has a closet full of big shoes to fill, let’s find out who the rest of you are and why you’re here.”

While the guy in the far-right corner stated his name, age and marital status, Sam’s cell phone buzzed. It was Mark, owner of The Meetinghouse and founder of the Marks Brothers. Upon arriving in Nashville, Sam had chosen his hotel for the sole reason that it was walking distance from the club, rumored to be a favorite of agents and producers. Although Sam had put everything into his performance there, no contracts materialized. The next best thing happened, though, when Mark asked him to sub for ailing or vacationing band members. And they’d been rock-solid friends ever since.

He made a mental note to return the call after class. Sam went back to focusing on the students, the last of whom had just finished his introduction.

“Look around you, people. These are the guys who’ll have your back until the session ends...and maybe afterward, if you’re assigned to the same house. Match faces with names. Memorize voices. Anyone care to guess why?”

The guy with the ditzy girlfriend said, “Face-mask drills? Might be the only way to tell who’s who.”

Sam was about to agree and elaborate when Epps interrupted. “Your turn, Captain Marshall. What made you become a firefighter?”

He stifled a groan and wondered whether to set her straight now or explain his expectations privately, after class.

Arms crossed over his chest, Sam said, “I was born ’n’ bred on a Colorado ranch, and when I was sixteen, lightning started a brush fire. If not for some determined firefighters, we would have lost livestock, outbuildings, maybe even some ranch hands. I was impressed. Impressed enough that, first chance I got, I signed on with the volunteer fire department.”

One student wanted to know what had brought Sam to town; another asked if the Nashville department had recruited him from Colorado. How would it look if he admitted that dreams of signing a recording contract—not the city’s fire safety—had brought him to Tennessee?

Sam made a V of his first two fingers.

“One,” he began, “starting right now, in the interest of time and efficiency, we’ll do things like we did ’em in school. If you have a question or want to make a comment, raise your hand. Two—to answer your question—another thing that happened when I was sixteen was spending a week in Nashville with the family. I fell in love with the place and always said I’d come back.” He shrugged.

Epps raised her hand, and when Sam gave her the go-ahead, she asked him how he’d become a captain.

In every training session, one student stood out from the rest. The joker. The know-it-all. The always befuddled. And the chronic question-asker. Oh, yeah, he’d have to nip this in the bud, stat.

“I kept my ears open and my mouth shut.” He met every cadet’s eyes. “Same thing each of you will do...if you hope to advance in the ranks.”

Epps held up a forefinger and prepared to fire off another question, but Sam beat her to the punch.

“Pencils up, people. We have a lot of ground to cover, and I talk fast.”

He instructed them to turn to the blank pages at the back of their workbooks, and after an hour of questions and answers regarding the preliminary qualifications for rookie firefighters, he dismissed class early. He erased the whiteboard as they filed out of the room. How many would he lose between now and the last class? One, if he had to guess: Epps. Her attitude made it pretty clear that she believed her family name would buy certain considerations. The minute she figured out how wrong she was...

His phone buzzed again.

“You know where The Right Note is, right?” Mark asked.

“The diner at the corner of 19th and 20th?”

“How soon can you be there?”

“Ten minutes, give or take. Why?”

“You’ll find out soon enough. Bring an appetite. Supper’s on me.”

There had been a certain edge in Mark’s voice, Sam reflected as he pulled into the parking lot. Hopefully, it wasn’t because Eli had gone on another bender. “That’d be a sorry shame,” he muttered. Mark’s younger brother had been clean and sober nearly four years.

Mark was sipping a tall glass of sweet tea when Sam slid into the booth seat across from him. “I’ve been meaning to check this place out for years,” he said, glancing around. “Most attempts at imitating a fifties soda shop fall flat, but I like this. I like it a lot.”

Mark harrumphed. “Well, thank you, Frank Lloyd Wright. I’m sure the owner will appreciate your critique.”

Sam chuckled as a freckle-faced teen stepped up and slid two plastic-coated menus onto the red Formica table. “Sweet tea for you, too, sir?”

“Sure. But hold the lemon, okay?”

The kid hurried off, and Sam pretended to read the dinner listings. “So why am I here?”

“We haven’t even ordered yet. What’s your hurry? Got a hot date or somethin’?”

“Matter of fact, I do...with a stack of lesson plans.” Sam stretched out his sore leg and massaged the taut thigh muscle. Standing for extended periods always made it ache, but never more than when he paced the linoleum-over-concrete classroom floors. “Truth is, I’m curious. Every other time you’ve popped for a meal, I’ve had to work for it.” He closed the menu. “So what can I do for you this time?”

“Sheesh.” Mark shook his head. “You’re such a cynic.” He paused, then said, “I thought you were partial to blondes?”

The movements of a short-haired brunette had drawn Sam’s attention to the kitchen. “With my luck,” he said, averting his gaze, “she’ll turn around and give me an eyeful of hairy moles and missing teeth.”

Mark snickered, then pointed at Sam’s leg. “You keep that roadblock out there, you’re liable to find out. How long since the last surgery?”

Sam did the math in his head. He’d had two operations since the cave-in. “Going on three years.”

“But it’s still bugging you.” Mark leaned back. “Are you gonna talk to somebody about it or keep playing the strong, silent type?”

“I’m talking about it now.” He leaned back, too. “Unfortunately.”

The waiter arrived with Sam’s iced tea and, taking a pencil from behind his ear, asked, “You guys ready to order?”

Mark hadn’t even glanced at his menu. “Turkey burger and sweet potato fries, house salad with light Italian on the side.”

“Holy health food, Batman,” the kid said. “What’s got into you?”

“That crack is coming out of your tip, wise guy.”

Sam read the boy’s name tag. “Go ahead and laugh, Ted. I’ll get the tip. It’s worth every dollar to see this guy squirm.” He tapped his menu. “I’ll have a BLT, a side of fries and coleslaw.” And when Ted walked away, he added, “So what’s her name?”

Mark’s eyebrows rose. “Whose name?”

“The woman who put you on a diet.”

Waving the comment away, Mark said, “Can’t a guy cut back a little without his friends jumping to crazy conclusions?”

“So I take it a best man invitation isn’t the reason I’m here.”

“Man. You’re like a puppy with a bone.” He shook a packet of sugar into his already sweet tea. “All right, Mr. Impatience, here’s the deal—Duke Miller is taking Eli on the road.”

“No kiddin’? Well, good for Eli. It’s about time the guy caught a break.”

After leukemia took his little girl, Eli’s heartbroken wife had committed suicide, and he’d found comfort at the bottom of a bottle. Hard to tell how long he might have stayed there if Mark hadn’t made him an offer he couldn’t refuse: if Eli could shape up and kick the addiction, he’d make him a full partner at The Meetinghouse. Which he had.

“He leaves in two weeks. Just enough time to get his affairs in order.”

“Will Torry replace him as manager?”

“Well, he’s on the road more than he’s here in Nashville.”

Sam pictured Torry Martin, the big red-haired comic whose stand-up and movie career had taken off in the past year. “But Eli’s still your partner, right?”

Mark shrugged. “Therein lies the rub, Sherlock.”

“Wish I had a dollar for every time that line was botched.”

Mark looked up. “Huh?”

“For starters, it’s Shakespeare, not Sherlock Holmes... Hamlet, to be specific.”

“Gimme a break,” Mark kidded. “You know as much about the bard as I do. Which is zip.”

“Says you.” Sam launched into the story of how, back in high school, the object of his affections had signed up to play Gertrude in the annual winter pageant.

“Claudia’s family owned the ranch just north of the Double M, and I figured she and I might have a chance to get closer if I drove her home from rehearsals.”

“Closer, literally?” Mark leaned forward. “Or closer, figuratively?”

Sam ignored him. “Claudia loved attention. Positive. Negative. Didn’t matter, long as people were looking at her. She was a cheerleader. Recited the pledge for the morning announcements. Faked migraines and fainting spells in the halls, so guys would have to carry her to the nurse’s office.”

“And you had a crush on a girl like that.”

“I was young and dumb. What can I say? Anyway, it didn’t surprise anyone when she snagged the female lead. I auditioned for the part of Horatio, thinking, fewer lines to memorize than Hamlet. But good old Mrs. Smith had other ideas.”

“Hamlet? You? No way.”

Sam nodded. “Yes, way. You should’ve heard my cousins, mocking every line as I prepped for that part.”

“Well, at least you got the girl.”

Sam took a deep breath, let it out slowly.

“No way,” Mark repeated.

“Yup. I took all that razzing for nothing, since Claudia only had eyes for Bart Isaacs.”

“Captain of the football team?”

“Nah. His dad was a big shot in Denver politics.”

“Ah.” Mark took a swig of his tea. “But I didn’t fall off the turnip truck, my firefighter friend. No way you can convince me you played Hamlet!”

“Oh, yeah?” Sam sat ramrod straight, and began, “‘To sleep, perchance to dream, ay, there’s the rub. For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, when we have shuffled off this mortal coil, must give—’”

A breathy oomph, the shattering of plates and the clatter of silverware hitting the floor interrupted his monologue.

There on the floor beside him, amid broken dishes, tomato slices and a jumble of fries, sat the most gorgeous brunette Sam had ever seen. Dark, long-lashed eyes flashing, she glared up at him.

“Did it ever occur to you that sticking your leg out into the aisle might trip someone who can’t see over a serving tray?”

CHAPTER TWO

THE GUY WINCED as he stooped to help her pick up the mess. “Man, oh, man. You’re right, I wasn’t even thinking. I’m really sorry.”

The flash of pain on his face looked genuine enough to surprise her, even though she was the one sitting on her rump in the aisle.

Finn flicked a slice of bacon from her lap. “Yeah, well, accidents happen, I guess. Especially when we’re distracted.” She met his eyes. “Right... Hamlet?”

His cheeks flushed slightly, and despite herself, Finn thought it was charming.

“Sticking my leg out that way has become a habit since...” He ran a hand through almost-blond waves. “It’s a bad habit, I’ll admit.”

He made a cup of his right hand and started dropping shards of glass and chunks of stoneware into it.

“Stop, please,” she said, one hand up like a traffic cop. “I’ve got this. I can’t afford a lawsuit if you cut yourself. Besides,” she added, nodding at his leg, “you’re already hurt.”