Be More Chill

“Right, hmmmm,” he wakes up. “So that’s the play. Tomorrow we’re going to do scenes with Lysander and Demetrius. Maaaaaaaaa! We need everybody here, and blah blah blah—”

Scraping, chatting, yawning, we drown him in the dive for our backpacks. Here’s my last chance to talk with Christine. I’ve got to (1) give her the chocolate Shakespeare and (2) be slick about it—like I’m her friend but I could be more—and (3) leave the theatre with a flourish.

“So um, Christine,” I manage before she gets offstage, talking to the back of her head. In my left pocket, a fist clenches and unclenches. In my right, Shakespeare stands tall. “Did you hear anything about me, ah, giving you a letter?”

“Mm?” She faces me. That doesn’t sound like a good Mm.

“A letter, like…Well, in my math class this morning Jenna, who sits next to me, y’know, Jenna Rolan, said something about me giving you a letter and, like, I don’t even know you that well, so there might be, or have been, a misunderstanding.”

“I don’t understand.”

I don’t either, and that’s what I just said. Doesn’t she know what a misunderstanding is? I don’t say anything.

“You want to make sure that you didn’t give me a letter?”

“Well…”

“Why? What’s this about?” Christine leans her folding chair against her hip.

“Well, I just hate when rumours get started because they’re really hurtful, you know, and—”

“You didn’t, OK?”

“OK.”

“You didn’t give me any letter. Are you happy?”

“Well, I’m pretty happy—”

“Are you proud about not giving me a letter?”

Uh-oh. Against her hip, her chair twitches.

“Is that like your big accomplishment of the day? Not giving me something?”

“No, actually, I was—”

“Whatever.” Christine walks offstage and gets her backpack. I reach into my pocket for Shakespeare but—ewwww—fingers grab mushy chocolate head and sink into soup ringed by foil! Abort mission! Chocolate filth!

“Wait, Christine—”

But she’s already on her way out of the theatre. She seems to walk slowly, saying something to herself, maybe about Mr Reyes but more likely about me, I hope/fear, and then suddenly she’s at the door and she scowls back once, as if thinking, Well, figured as much—his name’s Jeremy. And then she’s gone as if, you know, a giant dragon coiled its way up from the floor of the theatre and decided to take her for its mate.

Fuck.

I should be pissed, right?

But, well…I’m weirdly relieved. It’s like I knew this would happen all along. It’s like I couldn’t handle anything else; it’s like this is the way the world works for me and, what do you know, it worked again. Failure justifies all my worrying and planning and strategising. I was right. I couldn’t do it. It’s almost as if I got away with something. My posture is back to being no good, my unslick peripheral vision has relaxed and I’m staring at the floor. I trudge to the bathroom to clean out my pocket.

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