The Second Life of Sally Mottram

Dedication

For Chris

Contents

Cover

Title Page

Dedication

Map

BOOK ONE: The First Day

1. Two nines and a six

2. In the cul-de-sac

3. Purely routine

4. A lovely evening

5. The Fazackerly sisters

6. A very short chapter, but fear of a very long evening

7. Marigold goes to a party

8. Ben arrives home late

BOOK TWO: Sally Makes a Journey, and a Decision

9. Going south

10. A small flat in Barnet

11. Sam’s worry

12. In which Totnes is mentioned many times

13. Uncharacteristic behaviour

14. A surprise

BOOK THREE: The Work Begins

15. A Tuesday in spring

16. The Great Bruise Special

17. Sally breaks new ground

BOOK FOUR: Conrad

18. The great cities of Italy

19. A thousand miles apart

20. A long, hot summer

21. Sally’s dread

22. Dinner for two

23. The march

24. The waiting

25. A grand night in the hills

26. Marigold seeks advice

27. A resounding whisper

28. A glorious weekend

29. A difficult meal

30. Sally confronts her soul

BOOK FIVE: Transition

31. An emissary with a wet handshake

32. A life of luxury

33. A hard decision

34. An unfinished manuscript

35. An envelope of distinction

36. Public and private changes

37. Flood control

38. The remorseless passage of time

39. Before the deluge

40. The deluge

41. After the deluge

BOOK SIX: The Last Day

42. Morning

43. Afternoon

44. Evening

Acknowledgements

About the Author

Also by David Nobbs

Copyright

About the Publisher

BOOK ONE

The First Day

Of course they didn’t know, on that day, that it was the first day.

ONE

Two nines and a six

Sally Mottram had never liked Potherthwaite. She had never even liked the North of England. She endured it because of Barry’s business.

She liked it less than ever today. She had walked the length of the High Street, as part of her exercise routine, and because she wanted to call in at the bookshop on the Potherthwaite Quays – the plural was an exaggeration. There she had received the devastating news that the bookshop would close in three weeks, unable to match the special offers given elsewhere in a world where a book is expected to be a little cheaper than a starter in Pizza Express.

On the Quays there was a very basic café and an empty building with a rusting sign that stated ‘The Terminus Bist o’. The bistro had closed its doors – another exaggeration, its door – seven months ago. Soon ‘The Canal Bookshop’ would also be empty. One day a letter would drop off there too, and ‘The anal Bookshop’ would fester among the floods for ever.

This was the scene at the end of the Potherthwaite Arm of the Rackstraw and Sladfield Canal, which the great Sir Norman Oldfield no less had once planned to turn into a rival for Wigan Pier. Sally stood and looked at the dereliction. Up the canal, three narrowboats lay moored. One had sunk, but the canal was so shallow that it was hard to notice this. The second was rotting, as was its occupant, a sculptor who had suffered from sculptor’s block for seventeen years. The third was beautifully maintained, and lived in by a rather posh couple, who had once just managed to get to the Quays through the silt, only to find that there was no longer enough water in the cut for them to turn round and go home. They had lived there for eight and a half years now, getting slowly older and slower, but always offering generous noggins to their new friends.

Something had to be done about Potherthwaite, but who would do it?

She turned her back on the sad scene, and began to walk along the unimaginatively named Quays Approach towards the east end of the long High Street. Waddling complacently towards her was Linda Oughtibridge. Some people thought she did the flowers for the church quite beautifully. Others didn’t. Linda Oughtibridge was in the former camp, Sally Mottram in the latter. Sally noticed something that afternoon that had never occurred to her before. Linda Oughtibridge was just about the squarest woman she had ever seen.

‘Oh, good afternoon, Mrs Mottram,’ said Linda Oughtibridge in a voice treacly with false enthusiasm. ‘Not a bad day.’

Not a bad day! This was almost the final straw for Sally. It was a vile day. The lowering sky was uniformly grey. True, it was dry, but there was dampness in the chill air. True also that there was no wind, but the stillness was so complete that the air almost became solid; walking through it was hard work.

There’s a certain kind of smile that demands to be wiped off a person’s face, and there’s a certain kind of face that demands to have the smile wiped off it. Linda Oughtibridge possessed just such a face, and just such a smile, and she was smiling now. The words formed themselves irresistibly in Sally’s brain.

‘Oh, piss off!’

The shocking words hurtled from her brain towards her lips, where she clamped down on them just in time.

‘Not so bad, Mrs Oughtibridge.’

In twenty-four years of meeting, neither Sally nor Linda had ever ventured into Christian-name territory.

The narrowness of her escape brought Sally Mottram’s flesh out in goose pimples. She had nice flesh; she was an attractive woman in a slightly restrained way, but with an elegant shapely backside over which at least two men in the town fantasized furiously. She was forty-seven, and was experimenting, but not too boldly, with hair the colour of straw. She had a husband and two grown-up children, a boy and a girl. Her husband was a lawyer. She was not the sort of person who said ‘Piss off’ to esteemed arrangers of the church’s flowers.

She walked slowly along High Street East, past two pubs, one of them boarded up, past two nearly-new dress shops, three charity shops and five empty buildings.

She passed a rash of tediously named enterprises – the Potherthwaite Café, the Potherthwaite Arms, the Potherthwaite and Rackstraw Building Society – and stepped into the Market Place, which was full of unlovely parked cars. The two best buildings were banks. The Town Hall, on the south side of the square, had architectural pretensions that it didn’t quite justify. The George Hotel had once looked handsome, but was peeling badly. On the west side of the square was the Victorian church, stone, solid and almost as square as Linda Oughtibridge. The church had been built to look instantly old. Paradoxically, it looked less old with every year that passed.

A noticeboard outside the church announced: ‘If you want to be saved, there’s always a welcome here.’ Beneath it someone had scrawled: ‘If you don’t, call at 9 Canal Basin and ask for Sophie.’

Beyond the church, the River Pother crossed under the High Street at an angle. Sally paused on the bridge, and looked down at the sullen stream. There had once been dippers, inappropriately lively and pretty, dipping eponymously on the little rocks in the middle of the river. There were no dippers now. Today there were only the two bipolar mallard, swimming listlessly against the sluggish waters.

She stopped to take in the scene. The river curved round the edge of the graveyard and ran north-east to the great textile mills, not a window unbroken now. Beyond the mills, rows of houses climbed the lower slopes of Baggit Moor as if turned to stone while striving to escape from the river’s last flood. She shuddered. She had almost said ‘Piss off’ to Mrs Oughtibridge. It was time to take herself in hand. It was time to get a grip.

She walked across the square into High Street West. A large furniture van passed her in the slow traffic that was clogging the grim road. ‘Barnard’s Removals. Serving Chichester and the World’.

Oh no. Marigold Boyce-Willoughby was walking towards her; she was a friend, and she couldn’t snub her. Sally found sympathy easy to feel, yet very hard to express. But she would have to.

‘Afternoon, Sally.’

‘Afternoon, Marigold.’

‘Better day today.’

The awful thing was that this was true.

‘I suppose so. At least it’s dry. Almost. Marigold, I … um …’

‘Don’t say it.’

‘No, but I …’

‘Don’t say you’re sorry. I’m not. I’ve had men up to here.’

Sally turned away, for fear that she would smile at this unfortunate phrase.

‘I’ll get by.’

‘Of course you will, Marigold.’

‘I have before.’

‘I know.’

‘I will again.’

‘I know. Well … um … I must be on my way. Barry’s a stickler for his tea.’

Oh God, why had she said that? What an awful picture of their life it painted, and their life was happy, wasn’t it? Marigold made it worse by commenting on it. Well, she would. She liked Marigold, but it was small wonder that three husbands had walked out on her.

‘Oh well,’ said Marigold Boyce-Willoughby. ‘You’d best be on your way. Mustn’t keep a stickler waiting.’

She would forgive the sarcasm, under the circumstances. After all, she was a Christian … a long while ago.

She walked on, on on on, as it felt. She passed the post office, and the forbidden territory of William Hill, never been in, couldn’t, imagine what folk would say! ‘I saw Sally Mottram in William Hill’s. She was pretending she didn’t know how to fill in a betting slip. Didn’t fool me. She’s a secret gambler.’

There is no sense of an incline in Potherthwaite High Street when you walk from west to east, but Sally found her legs growing tense and weary as she climbed gently from east to west. Surely the incline that day was just a little steeper than usual? She found herself wondering if the High Street was a geological oddity, level in one direction, uphill in the other.

She crossed the road. It was an entirely negative move, symbolic of Potherthwaite. She wanted to avoid walking on the edge of the waste ground, which stood like two missing front teeth in the unsmiling mouth of High Street West. The local department store, Willis and Frond, had failed seven years ago. The failure had been followed by several years of fierce lethargy, but now there were plans to pull down the adjoining delicatessen – yes, it was called ‘The Potherthwaite Deli’ – and build a large supermarket on the site. She shuddered. Potherthwaite already had a supermarket, tucked away at the head of the valley, beyond the allotments. It didn’t need two.

She hated walking on the edge of that gaping pit, not because she might fall into it – a criss-cross of barriers had been erected by the Overkill Department of the Health and Safety Office – but because she wouldn’t be able to resist looking down and seeing all the rubbish people had dumped there. Her neighbour referred to it as Condom and Coca-Cola Corner. It made her feel so angry that she could scarcely breathe.

Ahead of her, the removals van had its right-hand indicators on. It was going to turn in to the cul-de-sac. Some lucky people were going to move, escape from Potherthwaite, settle in or near Chichester. Hayling Island, perhaps, the gentle waves dappled with sunlight; the weather was different down south.

Luke Warburton, Johnny Blackstock and Digger Llewellyn were playing on the waste ground, idly kicking an empty Diet Coke tin around, bored out of their tiny minds in this tiny-minded town. Ben Wardle, that strange boy, appeared to be building a column of stones, placing a stone rather perilously on the top with infinite care. Johnny Blackstock, for whom the word ‘unstrange’ might have to be invented, strolled over and kicked the stones down. Luke Warburton and Digger Llewellyn thought this the funniest thing they had ever seen. Sally hurried on.

Mrs Oughtibridge – Sally was no longer religious, she didn’t believe in miracles, but it was almost a miracle that there was a Mr Oughtibridge – condemned all youngsters as wastrels, pointing out that there was a perfectly good youth club to which they never went. Sally hadn’t liked the little drama played out on the waste ground, but she had some sympathy for them. When she was their age she wouldn’t have been seen dead in a youth club, particularly a perfectly good one. Sometimes, when she was young, she had been naughty. She hadn’t been naughty now for twenty-five years. She didn’t think she would ever be naughty again. She did have thoughts, she was still attractive and attracted, but she dismissed them. Barry might not be the most vibrant man in the world, or even in Potherthwaite, or even for that matter in Oxford Road, or even the south side of Oxford Road. He didn’t go in for dramatic or romantic gestures. Men who are sticklers for their tea usually don’t. But he was a good man. Suddenly she felt that she wanted to get home, hoped he’d be back early, loved him in her way.

She crossed the road again, deftly dodging the slow-moving traffic. The removals van had disappeared into the cul-de-sac.

She passed ‘Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow’ – how she hated attempts at funny names for small businesses. She passed ‘The Kosy Korner Kafé’, on the corner of Canal Road which led to Canal Basin, the town’s minuscule red-light district.

She took a brief glance up the cul-de-sac, being mildly keen, in the dreary waste of that long, grey, almost motionless, late afternoon, to discover the identity of the lucky people who were leaving stony-faced Potherthwaite for the sunny environs of Chichester.

The big double doors at the back of the van were down, and the first items of furniture were being removed and taken into one of the semi-detached, Gothic-windowed old Victorian town houses in Potherthwaite’s Conservation Area. These were not lucky people at all. They were either deeply unfortunate people or really rather thick people. They were moving from the exciting creeks of Chichester Harbour to the cul-de-sac under Baggit Moor. Sally thought, from the position of the van, that they must be moving into number 9.

She should have realized that at five o’clock a furniture van would be delivering, not arriving to load up, but the sight of the van had set her thoughts rolling in a familiar direction, that of escape down south, and there had been no room for even the consideration of people moving to Potherthwaite from anywhere, let alone Sussex. As she stood staring at the furniture being removed, she was actually seeing that mythical day when her furniture van would set off, taking Barry and her down south, to glorious Godalming perhaps, or even cloistered Chichester.

But her fantasy didn’t last long. Barry would never move; he had his solid little business, his valued clients. He wasn’t one for grand gestures or for brave moves, and she could never leave him.

As she passed the turning into Cadwallader Road – how did they choose these street names? Cadwallader was absurd, it was a street of small terrace houses – she glanced at number 6 as usual. The curtains were closed in the front room. Sally always glanced at those curtains. It saddened her when they were closed, and cheered her when they were open, which was ridiculous, because Ellie Fazackerly was bedridden, had been for years – how many? Didn’t bear thinking about – couldn’t get up to see the view, not that you would want to see the view even if you could, but Sally was a humane person and she couldn’t bear to think of poor Ellie Fazackerly, trapped in her bed, second after second, minute after minute, hour after hour, day after day, week after week, month after month, always. Of course a lot of people didn’t feel sorry for Ellie. All her own fault. Brought it on herself. Saw her eat seven pies in half an hour once.

But Sally did feel sorry, and she thought of calling on Ellie, helping a few of those minutes to pass. But Barry was a stickler for his tea, however unwise it was to broadcast the fact, and he was a good man, on balance, and not every woman could say that about her husband.

She was coming to the edge of the town centre now, and High Street West was beginning to lose what little charm it had. To the right was Vernon Road, home to three adjacent Indian restaurants, the Old Bengal, the New Bengal (family feud) and the Taj Mahal. Already the smell of frying spices was drifting in the evening breeze. On the end wall of a Chinese takeaway, beneath a window beyond which rows of cheap pink clothes were hanging, someone had sprayed ‘Immirgants Go Home’ in angry black.

Now, at a confusing mini-roundabout, High Street West breathed its last. To the left were allotments, extensive, too extensive for these busy times, sadly. Many of them were badly cared for, and quite a few were unoccupied. Beyond them was only the supermarket and its huge car park, and then the bare inhospitable hills marked the head of the Pother Valley.

To the right, the moment you left the remnants of High Street West, you were suddenly in smarter territory. The houses were larger than anywhere else in the town, most of them were detached, and two or three even had swimming pools, which was ridiculous in that climate. Even the occasional solar panel spoke of wild optimism.

Now the road forked. Sally took the right-hand fork, along Oxford Road. Beyond the road, at the head of the valley, high above the rushing streams that formed the headwaters of the Pother, stood the nearest things to spires that Oxford Road afforded. Eight vast windmills stood guard on the tops of the hills, motionless and silent in the still air, neutered by nature.

Peter Sparling was walking towards her with his Labrador, and she knew the sort of thing he was going to say, and she dreaded it.

‘Not a bad day.’

She thought of the shock there would be if she told Peter Sparling to piss off. Or worse. Something sarcastic was needed, though. She had to bleed this sudden overwhelming feeling of frustration.

‘Yes, not bad at all,’ she said. ‘Very little thunder, the lightning scarcely forked, and not a tsunami in sight. Mustn’t grumble, eh, Peter?’

Peter Sparling gave her a puzzled look, said ‘Come on, Kenneth’, as if urging his beloved dog out of the contaminated area surrounding this madwoman, and walked on.

Sally walked on up Oxford Road, past ‘Windy Corner’, the home of the town’s only psychiatrist, the overworked Dr Mallet, and past the trim, neat, lifeless garden of ‘Mount Teidi’, where her neighbours the Hammonds were so silent that she often thought they must be in Tenerife when they were in fact at home.

Everything was silent today. The silence oppressed her.

She opened the gate into the immaculate garden of ‘The Larches’, just as lifeless at this early moment in the year, but full of the promise of bloom. She noticed a weed or two, and decided to let them live a little longer; she wasn’t obsessive, she wasn’t a Hammond.

She put her key in the lock, turned it, opened the door, entered the hall.

Inside the house it was silent too. She saw him straight away, and, that day, he was definitely not being a stickler for his tea. That day he had done something that was definitely dramatic, and might even be considered by some people to be brave. He was hanging from a beam at the top of the stairs. There was a rope round his neck. He was very, very dead.

TWO

In the cul-de-sac

‘They’re old,’ said Arnold Buss in a low voice.

‘And we aren’t?’ said Jill, also in a low voice, although it was absurd to feel the need to speak so quietly, as their new neighbours had only just pulled up behind the furniture van, and were busy getting things out of the ample boot of their silver VW Passat.

The Busses were standing a little back from the window, Arnold further back than Jill, in the cold spare front room on the first floor of number 11 Moor Brow, which was always referred to as ‘The Cul-de-Sac’, as if Potherthwaite was actually rather proud of having such a thing as a cul-de-sac. They didn’t want to be caught peering out. Arnold had taught history, and Jill had been in the forefront of the world of the colonoscopy in the District Hospital. It wouldn’t do to be seen to be curious about their new neighbours.

The man, now carrying two small suitcases, suddenly looked up to examine his new surroundings. Jill and Arnold hurriedly stepped back even further from the window.

‘I don’t like the look of their standard lamps,’ said Arnold.

‘What’s wrong with them?’

‘Ostentatious. They’re going to be materialistic. I know the type.’

‘And what did they do for a living?’

‘I don’t know. How could I possibly know that?’

‘I’d have thought their occasional tables might tell you.’

‘Oh, don’t be silly, Jill. Where are you going?’

Jill Buss was striding towards the door with a sudden sense of purpose. It unnerved Arnold when she showed a sense of purpose.

‘I’m going to tidy my make-up, if you must know.’

This was dreadful news. No good could come out of Jill tidying her make-up. Arnold was not sociable.

‘And why might you be going to tidy your make-up at this moment?’

But Jill was far ahead, out of earshot. She had marched across the landing, now she burst through their large bedroom – the rooms were big in these old houses – strode into her en-suite – they had separate bathrooms, the en-suite was her stronghold – and shut the door in Arnold’s face. She didn’t like him in the room when she was doing her make-up; he could never resist sarcasm. ‘We’re going to the pub for the early bird, not Buckingham Palace.’

He hesitated, then plucked up his courage, opened the door, and went in.

‘Arnold! I might have been on the toilet.’

‘You aren’t.’

‘But I might have been, that’s the point. You couldn’t know I wasn’t.’

‘I’m surprised that …’ He stopped. What he had been about to say wasn’t wise, wasn’t wise at all.

‘You’re surprised what?’

‘Nothing.’

‘No, come on, Arnold, what?’

He sighed. His sighs were deep and frequent.

‘I’m surprised that a woman who earned her living giving people colonoscopies should be so ladylike about going to the toilet in front of a man who has known her and her body for forty-four years. Why are you touching up your face, Jill?’

‘I’m going round to see them, if you must know.’